Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling) Support Group
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Can't stop tweezing bikini area hairs.... help!
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so, i just joined this group after digging a huge disgusting hole (literally) into my skin trying to get out an ingrown hair... i don't pull out any of the hair on my head, which seems to be the most common topic on the advice/discussion boards, but I pluck out the hair from my bikini area instead.
this started after the first time i got waxed (a year or so ago, and at my boyfriend's urging) and i was annoyed that that the woman left a few stray hairs, so I plucked them out. then, as the hair started to grow back, i plucked the hairs as they came in so that my bikini area would still look smooth.. and then i was hooked. I can't stop plucking at the hairs, and will dig under my skin or cut myself to try to get them out. i mainly use tweezers and safety pins and it has left a lot of marks and scars. my boyfriend HATES that i do this, and regrets ever asking my to get waxed. (ha.)
i have tried nair and shaving, but can never restrain myself long enough to let the hair grow back in enough for either to work. i have also tried stopping by using sticker charts to reward myself.. this works sometimes but as soon as i am stressed i usually throw the chart out of the window...
i use plucking as a method of procrastination, do it when i'm bored, do it when i'm stressed, and will sneak into the bathroom to do it when there are people around. i examine my bikini area for HOURS looking for any little hair that i might have missed or that i could possibly get out.. i do this at least a few times a week. it's really annoying because it takes so much of my time up but once i start, it is impossible to pull myself away. i will even be late for things because i don't want to stop tweezing.
other facts: i am on lexapro for anxiety/depression... which hasn't really been an issue anymore since i've been taking the medicine. but the plucking won't go away. i also pick at my skin whenever i see clogged pores or pimples, and will pluck out my boyfriend's stray hairs or look for clogged pores/blackheads on him, which he found helpful at first but now is scared to let me do, thinking i will scar his skin too.
i feel like all of this is gross and people probably don't want to know the details about how i pick at pimples and pubic hair (haha) but i really really really would like to get this under control.
any advice?
thanks everyone!
this started after the first time i got waxed (a year or so ago, and at my boyfriend's urging) and i was annoyed that that the woman left a few stray hairs, so I plucked them out. then, as the hair started to grow back, i plucked the hairs as they came in so that my bikini area would still look smooth.. and then i was hooked. I can't stop plucking at the hairs, and will dig under my skin or cut myself to try to get them out. i mainly use tweezers and safety pins and it has left a lot of marks and scars. my boyfriend HATES that i do this, and regrets ever asking my to get waxed. (ha.)
i have tried nair and shaving, but can never restrain myself long enough to let the hair grow back in enough for either to work. i have also tried stopping by using sticker charts to reward myself.. this works sometimes but as soon as i am stressed i usually throw the chart out of the window...
i use plucking as a method of procrastination, do it when i'm bored, do it when i'm stressed, and will sneak into the bathroom to do it when there are people around. i examine my bikini area for HOURS looking for any little hair that i might have missed or that i could possibly get out.. i do this at least a few times a week. it's really annoying because it takes so much of my time up but once i start, it is impossible to pull myself away. i will even be late for things because i don't want to stop tweezing.
other facts: i am on lexapro for anxiety/depression... which hasn't really been an issue anymore since i've been taking the medicine. but the plucking won't go away. i also pick at my skin whenever i see clogged pores or pimples, and will pluck out my boyfriend's stray hairs or look for clogged pores/blackheads on him, which he found helpful at first but now is scared to let me do, thinking i will scar his skin too.
i feel like all of this is gross and people probably don't want to know the details about how i pick at pimples and pubic hair (haha) but i really really really would like to get this under control.
any advice?
thanks everyone!
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Try to stay out of the bathroom except for the needed reasons. Keep your bikini area dry. I know the re-growth itches. I does for me when I shave. To lighten the scars try a cream you can find in the make up isle at the drug store. I found it at Wal-Mart. It is what they make for faces to remove spots caused by the sun or age. I used it on my leg, I had a burn scar and it got rid of it. Not overnight, took a few months.
Check out this site.
http://www.trichotillomania.co.uk/
this is the link to go straight to the forum board:
http://lilboh-nfl.dnsalias.com/trich/modules.php?name=Forums
To sign up look to the right for the link that says Begin.
On the boards about half way down is the category Where do you pull from. Under that is Other parts of the body. Maybe you will find better tips there.
After your first visit the easiest way to check the board is to click View posts since last visit it is on the right on the forum board.
I see a therapist and psychiatrist for major depression - I'm on cymbalta which has helped somewhat. Today for the first time I mentioned to my therapist that I seem obsessed with tweezing. It used to be mainly eyebrows (but not so that I have none), then legs, and now I also do my bikini line and even my entire pubic region. I too pick at pimples or ingrown hairs and it takes all my self control not to squeeze pimples on other people!
I too seem unable to stop - I've been late for appointments but can't pull myself away from my bathroom!
I guess I'm saying that I don't have any advice for you, but wanted to let you know you're not the only one.
I think that you and I - because our plucking is in areas or our bodies that aren't public - have different concerns than others with this condition, though the urges may come from the same places.
I've been able to 90% stop pulling my eyelashes through a kind of a weaning approach. I told myself that I was allowed to pull, but not as hard and not for as long as I had been, and if I didn't get any eyelashes out, oh well! I would have to wait a few hours until I was allowed to pull again. And I gradually decreased from there. I mostly focused on pulling more gently and lightly, so I wouldn't actually pull the hairs out as much anymore, and thus I would have less and less incentive to keep pulling.
At least that worked for me, since getting the hair out and being able to hold it and look at it and scrutinize it gives me the most release, not just the pulling itself. So maybe if it's similar for you you can tell yourself (though this will be hard) that you aren't allowed to use tweezers anymore, but you are allowed to use your hands, so this will force you to let the hair grow in long enough to pull at with your fingers, and your fingers wont be able to pull out as many hairs as your tweezers, so you will slowly begin decreasing the "payback" you get from pulling.
I'm still really struggling with the scalp and pore picking, but I've gotten a few good ideas from people here, like give yourself a barrier - a device or method that will still give you a similar feeling as pulling, but that separates you from the act of pulling itself. Like for me I've been trying to use a really stiff, bristly brush to scrub my scalp every day so that I feel like there's less dead skin on there to pick at, and I've gotten a blackhead removal tool to use instead of my fingers on my face, and I've been trying to just use more blackhead and pimple removal products on my face so that there will be less to pick at in general. So maybe giving yourself a barrier - like switching to hand picking, rather than tweezing, or promising yourself a good wax as soon as the hair gets long enough to wax again, so there won't be anything to tweeze anyway.
I dunno, I hope some of this helps!
I started a new anti-depressant today, prozac which is meant to help with hair pulling and other anxiety-related problems when at a high dose. As well as the impulse side of it, I have got BDD too and a bit of OCD and I know they are all closely linked. I'm wondering if anyone here has BDD too?as the reason I started it was because I hate hair on my body where it shouldn't be! I'm desperate to get IPL laser on it all to stop it happening, I've already had a bit done but it's very expensive and takes ages for all the hair to go but I'm definitely going to make sure I get it done, but first need to let my legs heal a bit so I can get it done, otherwise it will be all pigmented. I've tried every technique to stop myself doing it and the longest I've lasted is maybe a couple of days, which was great for me. I'm hoping the medication will help too before I get the laser removal done. I just got book on it to help,called 'help for hair pullers' so maybe have a look at it on Amazon.
I will add, since I relate to what you are saying, that I had to add a goal sheet, to mark out ten minute slots of time to help me break the pattern of hiding in the bathroom to handle the pulling in private.
I strongly recommend the pimple tool, you can find it at Walmart, it will stop you from using your fingers, and acts as a barrier. It also protects the skin from excessive breakage. I used this tool on several ingrown hairs with success, and then used the vaseline to keep the area moist to give it time to heal after that.
Best wishes!
I have very bad insomnia so Ambien for that and Klonopin for anxiety. My psychiatrist says I have Adjustment Disorder mixed anxiety and depression. He described the disorder as a reaction to a traumatic event less than six months prior. I am fairly sure I'll be depressed and anxious longer than six months. I hope not, however my coping skills are clearly abysmal. I am so thankful to have a safe place to talk. I hope I can be a resource for everyone here. I will do my best. And please, if you do have the emotional bandwidth to do so, I welcome your advice or suggestions. I admire your strength for sharing with others. You have already helped me. Camille