Journal Entry for June 21, 2008
June 21, 2008 11:59pm
I had trouble sleeping last night, I kept having nightmares of being late for class. When I was in High School I would dream of missing the bus …
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childofgrace
is feeling Bad
reliving past mistakes is so hard.
About Me
I am a stay at home mom right now with 3 kids. I will be starting college this Fall, majoring in Nursing. I have been a Christian since 2001. After having 2 miscarriages last year I feel lost and confused.
Interests
I love to read, write poems, and spend time with my kids.
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Moving Forward
June 17, 2008 5:25pm
"I have accepted fear as a part of life, specifically the fear of change, the fear of the unknown. I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the …
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I'm determined!!
June 15, 2008 7:13pm
I am determined to prove those who think I can't succeed wrong!! I can't let others who don't really know me, discourage me …
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hope u dont mind sending a hug
Flower
Thanks for checking on me way back when. I was really in the middle of some stuff back then and ended up joining and then droping off of the map. I'm back again to see if periodic visits might help me to keep my head straight this time. Thanks for being a caring person and reaching out! I hope you are doing better than the last time you send me a hug :). zen
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*big gentle hugs* I am so sorry to see you are doing bad today. I hope you do get better soon! xoxox
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Good Luck
Awe! The thing is hunny I think most everyone there will feel the same as you. Your fear is very normal. I think anytime you have that spike in anxiety take a look around at the people there when you go to register and know most are probably experiancing the same as you! :) I know you will do great! Keep that chin up! xoxox
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Hiyas Darlin! I hope you are well!!!! When do your classes start?
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Last year I had 2 miscarriages. Ever since I've been depressed.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Poetry Somewhat Helpful
- Prayer Too Soon to Tell
Close Wilm's Tumor
I was diagnosed with Wilm's Tumor in 1985. I had to have radiation and chemotheraphy. I went into remission, and was suppsose to have yearly check-ups but I stopped going. Lately I've got this wierd feeling that i should get a check up.
Treatments
- Radiotherapy Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I met my Husband when i was 16. Even then there was moments when this light bulb would come on and I would think..There's something seriously wrong here. But that was before the abuse really began. I don't want to go into too much detail.. but I will say that the saddest thing of all is that I'm still married to him.
Treatments
- Leave Not Working
- I left many times. But he always followed me. I felt like i was in more danger not living with him. I may sound crazy but when I am with him at least i know when to watch my back.
Open Miscarriage
I didn't know i was pregnant until I started having contractions.. I went to the ER and found out i was miscarring. I was devastated. The doctor acted like i was crazy when i began to cry. It was just another medical condition to him.I was 12 weeks. In August I found out that once again I was pregnant. I was thrilled.. then on October 18 I miscarried again. Everyone thinks I should be over "it" by now. But I've lost 2 of my kids.. how can you get over that??
Treatments
- D&C Somewhat Helpful
- It didn't lessen the pain but it shorten the process. I wish it could help with the grief.
Open Panic Attacks
I started having panic attacks about 5 years ago. I didn't know what they were until recently... I thought something was wrong physically, that i was dying.
Open Parenting 'Tweens (9-12)
I have a daughter who is going to be 11 soon.
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
My only son is just turning 4
Treatments
- Child Time-out Not Working
- Patience Working / Worked
Open Military Families
My brother just came back from Iraq in Aug. My uncle is there until Sept 08.
Open College Stress
I am a 29 year old mom of three. I will start attending NACC in the fall.
