horsenut's Journal

To sound like a broken record.

I love talking to and hearing GOD.

Or if you want it said in more religious way, Praying and getting guidence.

If I get all confused it is because I misunderstood Who He is.

Sometimes we have to get simple.

I remember as a child I wanted to find Him.

There was an empty place waiting to be filled by Him.

No one in my family knew Him but only used His name as a curse word.

When i was 11 years old our class went on a field trip to a cathedral. There I bought a

post card with a picture of Jesus on it.

I put it on a door in my bedroom.

One night as I was getting into bed I looked at it.

I just knew I loved Jesus.

So I started talking to him.

I love you Jesus.

Then He suprised me with his love.

His Holy spirit fell on me with awesome power.

He was showing me He loved me too.

Oh, You are real, you love me so much. I love you.

I was caught up in ecstasy.  It was pure and Holy. I felt 100% loved. 100% his. 100% excepted.

It got deeper and deeper till I could bare it no more.

I had to tell God to stop because I was so full I could not take anymore.

This was my first true encounter.

It came with the simplisity of a child searching.

So I am getting simple tonight and it is working.