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I had a miscarriage early this morning after 6 weeks of pregnancy and 2 years of trying with my husband to conceive. I am beyond devastated - I never, ever thought that I would be grieving the way I am. Mentally, I can rationalize a miscarriage - "it wasn't meant to be, your body is telling you the pregnancy is not right", etc. But I am feeling a gutteral, visceral loss - the pain is unbearable. I am wondering if I'm ever going to stop crying. I refused to leave my house today for fear of seeing a child or infant - they seem to run rampant here in Portland. I am embarrassed, ashamed, and panicked at the thought of turning 38 next month - time is ticking and I am scared. What I thought would be an amazing start to a new year has now come crashing down. I have a tremendous amount to be thankful for, and I know I will get through this, but I would love to talk to someone who has been through this. I feel incredibly sad and empty.
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You have chosen a goo dplace, there are so many people here you can talk to and there are so many different stories as well. For myself it has only been a few weeks, i guess close to a month. there are days i feel the same way as you, especially when i see pregnant women. I keep telling mysefl it was not the right time for some reason. But i am here if you need to talk or vent :) God Bless
canukmom
hi good morning i have just read your story and i know how you feel i have had 4 miscarrages and at first you will like to stay in the house and not see baby or any little children but it will get better each new day remember god love you and will keep you alway
babyboo1
I am so sorry to hear about your baby. I know the pain you are feeling right now, and it seems too intense to even describe to anyone who hasn't felt it. I have had 3 miscarriages, and my heart goes out to you and your husband. The first few days are unbearable, but little by little, it gets lighter. Tell your "rational side" that you really don't want to hear from it right now, and just put all your energy into grieving and healing.
Lee