my name is amanda...im 20 years old...and on July 19, 2007 i lost my first little angel, Alexander, and i was 16 weeks 2 days along, and it crushed my world...but me and my boyfriend decided to try again, so in September we were pregnant again...and again i was happy, but nervous at the same time...then on New Years day (which was Alexander's due date) i ended up in the hospital and on January 4, 2008 i lost my second angel, Brayden...and i was 17 weeks 4 days along with him...i miss both of my babies so much, and wish i could hold both of them in my arms again, and wish they could both be healthy and alive...i love you my little angels...
buying things for both of my little angels scrapbooks, and anything i can find for them...spending time with my boyfriend andy...and spending time with my best friend kym...
May 23, 2008 9:37pm
my sisters friend who just had a baby on may 1st came over yesterday...she was here for like 3 hours so i was pretty much forced to stay in my room …
with my first baby i was hospitalized @ 4 months on 7-17-07 because of heavy bleeding & low amniotic fluid. & then on 7-19 @ 4:25am (10 days b4 my b-day) i lost my little angel. then for my second pregnancy, i was hospitalized on 1-1-08 at 17w1d beacause the same thing happened, and on 1-4 @ 1:40am i lost my second little angel, & i miss them both very much
i started feeling depressed when i was 16, but nothing compared to the depression im feeling now after having a m/c on 7-19-07 (16w2d PG)& then i just had another one on 1-4-08 (17w4d PG)...i miss both of my little boys so much...it kils me everyday & it feels like its never going to get any better...& im loosing all hope...
i lost Alexander on 7-19-07 (16w2d PG), then i just lost Brayden on 1-4-08 (17w4d PG)...but im going to remain a part of this community in hope that i do become PG again after getting answers from the specialist...
