bluejae's Journal

Why is it that I have days were I have no control of anything ? My moods are up and down today , I'm fighting myself from crying . I didn't want to get up today at all . , and to make matters worse , my husband made a choice for me with out asking me first .that  buggs me the most . I don't feel like I have much control over my life as it is , and he doesn't get it ,  just came up with some reason why he didn't ask me , ( I wish he had of just said nothing ,when he does that , and it 's happened before . Contorl of my life is very importanted to me because it's something that I have fought for all my life , but he doesn't see it because he's always had the contorl . It's just been the last little wial  that he's even realised that something is wrong and that's only cause I told him that I wanted to go to a marrieage concler., but when things like this happen then I know nothing has real changed .( not his thinking ) . , thanks for being there for me ,this communty helps .