lorrieonline's Journal

Well, with the a/c on the fritz when I got home, the 87 temp inside has me totally impaired. Tropical paradise, the MS hell. By some miracle, it is going again, not sure why - maybe it froze up.

Trying to get back in with the 2nd opinion doc for a follow-up but the hospital never sent my lab results as they were going to 3/24. So we faxed back and forth today. I think not complaining until it's too late hasen't gotten me very far. Today I mentioned that I'm holding on by a thread - can't stand trying to make my way around the office. Boyfriend says I need more rest and that might be the case.

Don't know how much longer the job situation can keep up. Feel like giving up altogether sometimes. Guess I'm in yet another whoa is me, poor pitiful me day.

Been guilted into going to bible study tomorrow even though I tried to beg out. Course they don't know that after work, I am afraid to stop by the store for being too weak.

I really want to call someone and find out the ins and outs about disabililty although I know I'll be infuriated since I'm sure I wouldn't be able to live on it or probably get meds. If my life style were any more humble, can't imagine what it would be so that might be futile.

Positive side, at least I have a home, the a/c has kicked in and temp falling - think I'm out of an aspirin sort of thing and not enough energy to go to the store. What is it we are supposed to do? I'd love to talk to a counselor but a week from now never seems helpful at the first inquiry for an appointment.

Maybe bible study will take the pain away, although don't know how anyone could possibly understand how hard it is to walk up a driveway to get to the door of our group meeting. Oh, Whoa is me. Tired of trying sometimes.