lorrieonline's Journal

Ms sure provides its ups and downs.  I'm happy more than sad though and when the sadness or anger kicks in, yikes! 

I am so grateful in so many ways to have so many wonderful friends in my life.  My pastor said at church today that it's more than people at church, it's a family.  He was so right.  Friends helped to make sure I could get back stage ok and at the second service, it seemed half the choir went up those back stairs with me.  Blessed?  No doubt.

News of my job loss went around quickly and someone was there with a business card for me and another friend is helping revise my resume, another dear friend is having me over tomorrow to start a disability task force so to speak. 

It is so nice to have input from friends who want to help.  Yesterday I was disgusted with the MS.  Had been feeling good Thursday and refuse to think I can't handle finding a new job but alas, I guess the surprise and the new challenge wore the heaven out of me for Friday and Saturday.  Today, I got up and did a little resistance training for my weak leg.  The fighting spirit is trying to come through. 

I've managed to sing with the choir through our church services and prepare a vegetable tray for my family get together today.  I guess life is good today.  My son is coming from next door to bring a table to shuck oysters outside and Mom and I will be baking up oysters and hopefully, we'll just have a nice get-together.  It's my boyfriend's birthday and I feel so guilty that my MS seems to overshadow everything.  I guess it's an anger thing too.   I always feel that if I were better at planning and being a good camp director, the limitations wouldn't come into play so much.

Do we all feel this way?  If only I could handle my own MS better sort of deal.