OpheliaRising's Journal

"The marvelous richness of human experience would lose something of rewarding joy if there were no limitations to overcome. The hilltop hour would not be half so wonderful if there were no valleys to traverse." – Helen Keller

It was a quiet day today despite the fact my sleep schedule is all messed up. Husband took some time for himself and actually did things he loved most of the day. I was pretty proud of him for doing so. It’s hard to get him to do anything recreational and to get him to stop thinking/talking about work.

We did a quick run to the store to pick up misc. fruits and veggies we needed for the week. We got home and Husband took a small nap and then it was outside to mow for him. I stayed inside straightening the house at my leisure, doing laundry, and making a gift for a friend of mine who has been so supportive in this hard time. (I will post pics soon of the gift so keep an eye out!)

Husband and I had a simple yet quiet dinner, we then watched part of  “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” and of course laughed our brains out. We have it on DVD but it was on cable and anytime we come across it we quote it. After that Husband and I cleaned up the kitchen together and talked some. Nothing major we just talked about misc. stuff and laughed some more. Husband then went to play his new computer game I got him and I had a moment to myself for which I did a little needle work and had a cup of tea.

I wasn’t nervous at all today. I thought of Grammie of course but it was nice thoughts. I know I say it all the time but damn I miss her. Sometimes I wonder if that will grow stronger or ease over time. For me I am afraid it will grow stronger but for now I am ok.

Last night I looked up some volunteering jobs in the area. I really wish to volunteer doing something with senior citizens but all that is offered right now is working at a hospice (which I couldn’t handle right now) and they need a computer teacher at the senior citizens center. (oh and meals on wheels but my schedule wouldn’t allow that) So, I already put in an email to the Center. I figure I know A LOT about computers and would LOVE to teach people how to use them. Plus I think it would be great therapy. I get out, I get to interact and I get the privilege to hearing their stories and spending time with them not to mention teach them how to use a computer.

To be honest I always wanted to do something like that but always felt deep down inside it was “cheating” on my Grammie who was all the way in Ohio with me here in Texas. I never told her that. I just…I don’t know…thought it would make me lonesome for her more if I volunteered and then when she asked how it went I tell her I was with a bunch of other people and not her (when I really wanted to be with her). I always told Husband how much I wished I could have been there for her…I told her too but she just laughed and told me Texas was where I needed to be.

Oh, also a friend of mine sent me a belated birthday gift. Well it was belated more so then she didn’t have the money to ship it until now. I got it in the mail today. It is a bottle of Liz Claiborne Vivid perfume. I used to wear nothing but this perfume in High School. My friend (who knows me since my freshman year in High School) decided I need a bottle of it. She said it’s a requirement for me to have. LOL She said anytime she smells Vivid she instantly thinks of me and feels comforted. I remember back in High School my friends would swipe the shirts I wore and take them home with them. I didn’t know about this until my senior year when I went to go see a friend and she was laying on her bed sleeping all clenched to one of my shirts that smelled like the perfume. She confessed that several of them did it. I couldn’t help but laugh. I was the mommy of the bunch so I didn’t take offense to that. So, anywho I thought that was very nice of her see as how its discontinued and I was hording the half bottle I brought to Texas with me. LOL

I hope everyone is well!

~Bright Blessings~
Rea