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I have been very busy since my final. I have been hard at work in my panic attack and anxiety work book. It feels like it is doing wonders with each chapter that I complete. I am getting a great understanding of what is happening. My sleep schedule on the other hand is totally haywire at the moment where I sleep about 3 hour intervals when ever I am tired. I think today however I may go to bed at a decent time and sleep about 8 hours.
The other day I confessed something to Husband that hearing the words coming from my mouth made it so real it made me just cry so hard. I was offered to come into his High School and teach for a week with the family science classes. Me…teach. Me…stand in front of 28 faces eager to learn what I have to teach. They really want me there to teach them about herbs, herbal medicine, and herbal preparations as well as discuss my business.
I told Husband how much I wanted to do it and how disappointed in myself that I know I was just not ready. He said to me with a small smile, “well what would your lesson plan be?” and I started to tell him what areas I would cover and just broke down crying uncontrollably. I couldn’t finish what I had to say. He folded me into him and stroked my hair. He told me in the most comforting tone that next year they will probably ask me back and next year I can do it. To prep me he said he would love to have me come into my class and speak with them on running a small business.
Baby steps…leaps…holding myself accountable. That seems to be working. Perhaps next year I will be able to do it. Until then I am going to just take it day by day. Do more things even if they do make me uncomfortable. I will survive the panic attacks and the anxious feelings.
~sighs~ I have no much catching up to do….
I hope all of you are well!
Love,
Rea
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childofgrace
You're doing good, step by step, what you can't do today, you'll do next day, or for couple days, maybe weeks, don't push yourself. Be easy on yourself, and don't get disappointed if you can't do something right away. It takes time and patience and little hard work. It was same with me, I had so bad panic attacks, with agorophobia. Didn't have any for almost a year. At first you'll be scared and think you can't overcome anxiety and panic, but when you expose yourself step by step to what makes you that way, you gain more self confidence and evry time even a little thing you're able to do what you couldn't do before means a lot. Have a hope and tell yourself it's okay if I can't do it now, I can do it next time, and don't say or think I can't. You can do it and you'll do it when you're ready. Hugs.
calmsee
Teaching is an intimate relationship between student and teacher. It is the best job in the world. You will be surprised how forgiving the kids are. They are looking for an appropriate relationship with an adult. They give us more one chance. And when you get it right and see they grow. There is nothing more powerful.
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