OpheliaRising's Journal

I was going through files and found a letter I wrote to my Grammie. It was written in 2006 and I guess she was in the hospital. I wish to share it because I am just missing her. I am also happy that despite the fact I told her all the time what she meant to me that she was able to have it in a letter. Not to mention its sort of bitter sweet. I am one class from graduating College and in this letter well...you will see....yeah...well...enjoy...

09-02-06
Dearest Grammie-

I hope that when you read this letter it finds you well and within a speedy recovery. I miss you so much. I especially miss hearing your voice. I thought well if I cannot call her I might as well write her. I personally love writing letters as I am sure you know.
 

This letter brings a lot of wonderful news that may make you happy. Not only are things well here but seems to be getting better of course with a few bumps here and there- but that’s life, right? As you know we have 3 acres of land out in the country. A drilling company came to us asking if we would release the mineral rights to them. We would get a handsome some as a down payment and then a check every month for 10-45 years depending upon how long the well lasts. Right now they are drilling for natural gas and will be later drilling for oil- though not directly on our land. It seems the well they are going for is fairly large so we will not have to deal with the headache of having them drill near us.

With all that said and the down payment check handed to us we instantly turned around and decided it was time for me to go to college! We put a handsome down payment on my tuition. I am going to Australasian College of Health Sciences or ACHS for short. I will be getting a degree as a Master Herbalist. I will be going to school year round so I can graduate sooner and of course I still have my Small Business to run. My classes start in mid September which I am very excited about.

When I called Dad to tell him he blew me off and was sorta cold to me about it. He didn’t even congratulate me. I was hoping for once he would be proud of me but as you know nothing seems to please him unless you are sitting there in his misery with him. I kinda felt sorry for myself for just a moment because I felt like no one cared but Dylan that I was going to college. However, you instantly came to mind and I couldn’t help but smile because I know you are proud of me. That in itself makes me very excited to start.

I always tell myself I have two of the greatest people in the world who love me; of course you being one of them and then Dylan. I personally think I am the luckiest person to ever live to have two such people in my life. I know a lot of people can say they have more and probably do have more who love them truly. I am so blessed to have two.

I wish you could know how much I miss you.  I miss your voice and holding your soft hand in mine as we talk. I especially miss your hugs...I just miss everything about you. I still often write poetry and when I do you are not far from my thoughts as pages of white become scribbled with random words. I hold myself within the warm memories we have created with one another. I tend to even remember the smallest of things we did together.

I often find myself longing to be by your side sitting with you like we used to. We didn’t even have to talk just sitting was good enough sometimes just enjoying the summer day as it passed by. I think mostly what I hold dear is the fact that you were always there. I know I have always called you my guardian angel and I still do for I believe you are.

Through out the ups and downs you gave me hope and strength to move on ward into my adulthood. Of course now that I am here you give me comfort knowing there is someone who believes in me always. I cannot ever thank you enough for what you are to me.  All I know is when or if I have grandchildren I want to be a Grammie like you are.

I hope this letter has brought a smile to your face and warmth in your heart. Just know you are always in my thoughts and I will always love you. 

I love you.

Love always,
Your Great Granddaughter Rea