joankmli's Journal

i cut my arm again. this time i cut my wrist. the blade wasnt as sharp. so it didnt go in too deep. to add even more sadness to my misery is that i cannot start class because my job didnt change my schedule. so now i have to wait for another class to start. oh when will all this misery be over!!!!!! i'm gonna make an appointment to see my pdoc because i cant handle this all on my own at this time.. it's like i want to die, but at the same time i want to finally go to school and live my dream of being a nurse. it's so hard to think positive at this time. please pray for me. i want to get better. my feelings are all over the place at this time.