xBlissx's Journal

Feeling quite low today. My weight has gone up which I think was due to having a slice of beans on toast. My calorie intake was about the same as I've been having but I think it's because it's just a bit heavier than other stuff I've been having like fish and vegetables.

Not only that but I know I'm not going to hear anything from my pdoc today either because he doesn't work on a Tuesday in the hospital I go to. So now I have to wait till tomorrow to see if my GP has actually got up off his arse and done anything yet. It's annoying though because we need to know if he hasn't done anything because if that's the case, we're going to get on to PALS and see where we can go from here and possibly make an official complaint about my GP. But we can't do anything until we know for sure. If my Mum makes some phone calls it might just give him the kick up the backside that he needs to get going with his arrangements.

I'm also not very happy today because I was finally going to make my chocolate cake today (couldn't do it yesterday as my Mum was too tired when she got in from work as she had to work really hard). But today I'm not feeling too well. I'm dizzy and generally spaced out and when I took my blood pressure I saw why. It's the lowest it's been. So today, instead of being able to get up and focus on something which I've been looking forward to. I'm back to sitting on my bed, propped up with my laptop and having to take it easy again. I know it's better than trying to carry on and ending up on the floor but it's just a bit frustrating. ESPECIALLY as I've PUT ON weight.

I'm not feeling very comfortable with eating today either which with everything going on against me at the moment....isn't surprising. I've just had 1 weetabix for breakfast and a mug of tea so far. I've got a glass of water now and after that I can have my second tea. I've decided (with my Mum's permission) not to have anything else today until I take my tablets tonight which for them I will have one of my weight watchers yoghurts.

Goal Updates

I'm doing really well with my goals at the moment. I've just made lots of little goals for things which are going to help keep me as healthy as possible and work towards my 'stay out of NHS hospital' goal.