Journal Entry for November 14, 2008
November 14, 2008 9:02am
Well it's another year past almost and I really haven't made much progress forward for myself. I mean I'm living, doing and …
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newly divorced after 22 years - going to be a gramma in November and I can't wait! Retired Federal Employee.
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Are you still out there? I haven't been on this site in over a year....
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Hi. I'm sorry to hear about your brain tumor. I know how difficult that situation can be. Both my parents had brain tumors. I'm sorry you didn't get the support you needed from your husband. Hopefully you are well now and your life is headed in a positive direction. Good luck to you.
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Patti, You bring up some great points and believe me I've considered them. I too have thought the god sent me to you, but that's my upbringing talking. I am still a doubting Thomas... With that said, I consider myself a kind/considerate person. I believe in the power of human potential and I thank you for your kind words...
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Close Brain / CNS Tumors
Type: OtherI had surgery to remove a brain tumor they called a "coloid cyst of the left front ventricle" Not the kind of thing a late 30's working mother of 2 girls wants to hear....Although the surgery proved the tumor to be fully encapsulated and non cancerous it left me without memory, extremely weak and no longer capable of doing so many things, including my career which I thoroughly enjoyed.
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- Surgery Working / Worked
- I "lost" about 3 years of my life - which drastically and negatively affected my youngest child - the worst part of the experience. My husbands lack of dedication to us and our marriage was a devastating blow and added to my feelings of worthlessness and "damaged".
Close Breakups & Divorce
20 years of marriage after 2 years of living together..I had severe health issues and he had an affair...we separated and he kept stringing me along....I felt like I was going to total break apart and ran away for awhile back east....he moved her into "our" home...blew my mind but I missed "home and family" so I came back....demanded divorce and although I'm so messed up about it life is ok, except I have NO life of my own....partly due to my health - I had a brain tumor and THAT messed me up!
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- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Very very difficult but my anger was killing me and hurting my kids - still hurts but "they" are part of my life because of the kids and it is getting easier.
- Leave Working / Worked
- running back home to where I grew up and being surrounded by loving family and friends that have known me forever really helped me get my head together and feel like a whole person again - but you can't stay hidden forever and coming home was a real blessing.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I read everything I can find and get daily emails of hope and encouragement.
- Time Working / Worked
- time away helped, time around them now helps me realize how much I do not care anymore what they did to me.
Open Life After Divorce
wow, 20 years, 2 kids, moved me across the country because HE wanted to, he has an affair with a girl at work while I'm recovering from brainsurgery, he leaves me my heart is like a rock I guess except when it comes to my kids and grandkids, ok I just pretty much distrust men only. I'd like to have a nice, loving, kind man in my life but I have physical limits and my brain surgery left me a little disabled but I'm real lonely.It would be so marvelous to be loved and cherished just once more.
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