premiermois's Journal

I'm proud of myself. Today I had only about 1550 calories at the most. I had breakfast... felt horrible... was SO motivated to just not eat anything the rest of the day... didn't want to at all... but I felt guilty about doing it, and how I am still probably losing weight, and all that [conscience kicked in haha]. So I ate my lunch. But whoa I felt like crap after. I walked around as much as I could to burn off lunch, and when everyone else was having bagels, I swore to myself that no matter how hungry I was, I was not going to have anything until I had to eat again pre and post-run. And I didn't eat a single thing for 7 hours, til I got home just now.  I'm so dang proud of myself :D

Now I ran, and I'm working on my post-run protein splurge. But I don't want to finish it and if I wouldn't feel so horribly guilty about throwing away the half that I haven't eaten and wasting expensive "Ed safe" food that my mom is barely able to afford, I wouldn't eat it. =/

Tomorrow a bunch of friends are having a home-cooked dinner and everyone's invited, but guess who's not going? Cause if I did, I wouldn't have any time to do my daily exercise that day... and I'd be eating stuff that I didn't "know" enough about... or that I knew were "bad". So yeah. Gonna skip that one.