Journal Entry for April 18, 2008
April 18, 2008 11:50pm
Cayla says:how long do i get you for?Deb says:how long do you want me for?Cayla says:foreverDeb says:are you …
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About Me
peoples Word is worthless. My dads gf is right you can never truely trust one person... ppl lie thats all they do they lie and screw up ur life and dont give 2 shits! enough about me if u want to add me on myspace my url is www.myspace.com/juslivinthelife and my aim sn is cocochikluver13 and also annoyedbigrl56 and i have facebook too ... idk find me on there in the .. west seneca commiunity or how ever u find me . im debra brittin XD ... how am i doing sum1 asked and this is how i am rite now from: xXdebXx ive actueally been good lol crazy rite? lol idk i just am lovin the life of a girlie who is random and loves to dance in her underwear and flirt with the cute girlies and stay up all night haveing to finish that amazeing book i just must finish! lol
Interests
girl girls girls!!!! ': baby u have such a great body and ur so beauitful'hehe lol im bad i know but life is good when you enjoy these things! lol Soulja Boy hmm i love meeting new frineds and i LOVE LOVE LOVE to flirt with all the adorable girs and only one man.. lol XD on the bisexuality scale i a 5.99 outta 6 (full lesbian) thats all i guess.. oh except for saying about how i am GIVEING up on love, i give it too easily without considering if they even care about it... its shitty and i hate it. Lizzyxoxo thanks for always bein there for me to talk to i feel like i can tell you anything and you are special to me. im intersted in bood and poetry -i write- and handing out with friends and makeing new ones COMEING OUT to all people as well :D
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CUTTING
March 30, 2008 4:10am
i wanna cut so bad
i hate this
i hate what hapened with cayla
i hate my life
i hate how i cant stay put
i hate how much i love cayla
i hate everything
i do
i …
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My Wife to Be Got My Package =)
March 12, 2008 2:21pm
my boo cayla elizabeth marie thompson, my fiance and the love of my life got my package i sent her today and all the emothion and happyness i poured …
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Journal Entry for March 10, 2008
March 10, 2008 2:27pm
An Owde To My TEARS 3/10/08
As the teardrps fall …
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hey deb how r u girl long time no talk , ehy heard bout ur job offering on myspace congrads , so wats new with u , howse life howse ur lover , have u been anughty or have u been nice
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its fine. and its alea. lol no biggie. but that is cool. have fun
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elllo sis u ok
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j'taime ma cherri
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Support Groups
Close Coming Out
I'm going to a new school this year... last year i kinda came out -um my friend told the biggest loudmouth- because i was breaking up with my boyfriend because i wasn't sure if i was bi or lesbian. soon after i found people cracking mean mean gay jokes around me and making sure i didn't touch them as i passed by. and one girl actually chased me.[not in a good way] now im in a new school this year and i am wondering if i should come out or not... IV COME OUT IN MY NEW SCHOOL... ITS HARD...
Close Self-Injury
hi im Deb and yea i cut. ive been cutting since i was 13. i started because i was so confused and upset. my one and only best friend i had ever had stoped talking to me and then i fell in love with her and obsessed over her the way one obsesses with a celeb. i stalked her and had pix of her on my wall and i cut and the more deeper i did it the better i felt. i would cut more and more and was always depressed at home -school i acted like i was fine-... ask me 4 more info!
Open High School Stress
ugh there is def alot of effin stress in highschool. freshman year was AWFFUL all drama! UGH i hated it. i hope this year is better now that i am a sophomore!
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
i like porn... alot...and i need to control it! ahh
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
... no comment ...
Open Bisexuality
im bi.. but i have found girls much much more attractive than guys and have found myself breaking guys hearts and it hurts me but yea idk im not sure if im lesbion tho...
Open Teen Anxiety
i have anxioty and depression wow isn't that supriseing? lol
Open ADHD / ADD
ive had it since i was really litte and ive taken meds for it but recently i sopped cuz i felt weird but i wanna keep takeing it but what ever. i gained 20 lbs when i got off it so now i feel like a fatty :( lol
Treatments
Open Panic Attacks
i think i have had these when i was like 8 or 9... i would be crying and i wouldn't be able to breath and ya.. i thought it was just cuz i was upset but the more i think about it the more it looks like a panic attack! XD
Open Depression
ive been clinicly depressed I BELIEVE for about a year but i recently end septemberish started meds. which i love cuz i am loseing weight! YES lol but bsides that idk...
Treatments
Open Gay & Lesbian Teens
im bisexual and i love it! well sometimes. :/
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
my best friend claims to be diognosed as bipolar... shes scary sumtimes.. i love her tho! XD
Open Adoption
i was adopted when i was 5. but in jr high when i found out i was bi they hated it and shit cuz theyre rly religious and shit so i ran away and i live with my birthdad now. i kept in contact the whole time iwas adopted but only saw him like 5 times so this is a BIG change!
Open Healthy Sex
um idk
Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
i used to.. i had a bald spot in like 5th grade.. i also bit myself
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
omfg all relationships are so confuseing! i think i am a lesbian and id like to meet ppl to talk to me about it!
Open Post Partum Depression
yea i have it :(
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- it calms me down but doesn't get my mind off the thing thats naggging me
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
IM not sure what this is but apparently my docter thinks that i have it :(
Open Internet Addiction
yea i def. have an addicion my dad says and i guess hes right :(
Open Codependency
i always seem to depend on who im dateing and when they let me down it sends me into a downward spiral of serious tramadic depression
Treatments
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- i try to turn to my kitty when im real down but shes a beeyotch sumtimes
Open Rape
well on newyears a guy made me suck his dick, my friends all say its rape. im not sure, it was my friend, he was 20, i was kissing him and i was drunk maybe its my fault i sometimes think. we were in his car after driveing someonehome -drunk- and then it happened, he wanted to take me to his house but i said no. i thought we were just going to make out till he pulled it out and pushed it in my mouth and pulling my hair makin me go up and down. i cryed, and NO i didn't think to bite it. damn...
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