Another night of crying myself to sleep.
July 14, 2008 12:58pm
Last night was another night of crying myself to sleep. Nothing much to say. Just another long week ahead. Shit.
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Sharon. I♥You. I want to hold you.
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About Me
I have a crush on my professor-Sharon Johnson. She is very pretty, beautiful and very intelligent. But she is taken already:( I Love her with all my heart and soul together. I love music from:Within Temptation. They rock. I am currently studying criminal justice. I want to be an investigator or therapist.
Interests
Read. Listening to music. Write on my blog, talk to friend online. Express my feeling through writing. Sharon Tate, The Tate murder. The Manson 's family
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Recent Activity
Yesterday
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stephaniekoala changed their mood to Bad 10:17pm
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stephaniekoala updated their status 6:58pm
Sharon. I♥You. I want to hold you.…
Tuesday
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stephaniekoala updated their status 10:09pm
Don't ever -- around with me or you will regret it later.…
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stephaniekoala updated their status 1:49pm
Still can't get over Sharon. I ♥you. My Birthday is this Sunday. I am...…
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stephaniekoala changed their mood to Horrible 1:49pm
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Journal
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Dear Sharon honey, missing you my dear. Where are you my love. I want to hold you and to protect you
July 11, 2008 10:08pm
Dear Sharon:Stop being on my mind. You made me so depressed because i can't see you. I just wish i could hold you in my arm now. I love you so …
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Is this appropriate or not??????
July 6, 2008 9:17pm
My ex-doctor on campus (A female one), always love to touch me everytime she see me. The touch is non-sexual. Just she love to held my hand, a pet on …
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Crush
July 6, 2008 8:53pm
I am having a crush on a lady that i don't even know her name, don't even know my existence, and only see around a few times. It is crazy. We …
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Sigh....
July 2, 2008 2:03pm
My brother is in the hospital now. Because he got stabbed in the chest 6-7 times by some hispanic guys who wants to rob his cell phone. And he is …
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Hugbook
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In advance, Happy Birthday. Wow, I am more than twice as old as you...and I can remember, full well, where I was and what I was doing at 23. Anything I can do to cheer you up?
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big hug from toni xxx be happy
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be happy hun
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This is a support group for survivors of abuse you are not alone http://dailystrength.org/groups/ta...
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Hi girlfriend, i'm Shannon and i hope your doing well today and here is a big (((Hug))). Maybe we can be friends? Shannon
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionFeeling hopeless, discourage about my depression. I hate my life. Nothing matter. It too complicated to deal with it.
Treatments
- Acceptance Working / Worked
- Crying Working / Worked
- To let all my emotion and pain out.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- To know i am not alone in here.
- Distancing Working / Worked
- Want to avoid my crush-Sharon.
- Getting Angry Not Working
- My parents just think i am acting out, or going crazy.
- Love Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Using music to distracted myself and to listen to feel good.
- Paxil Not Working
- Make me feel suicidal and extremely depressed.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Therapy is getting more frustrating for me.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Online friend stick by me, never give up on me.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Talked to my professor-Sharon who used to suffered from depression, She understand and care about me, She never judge me.
- Writing Working / Worked
- To express my emotion, my pain in a constructive way.
Close Self-Injury
It so hard to stop. I can't stop. It killing me inside.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Not Working
- Because it make me feel more depressed/guilty.
- Love Working / Worked
- Outpatient Treatment Program Considering
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seeing a therapist and she is very helpful.
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Online friend never give up on me, stick by me, supporting me.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Talked it out help with someone who is going thru the samething.
- Writing Working / Worked
- To let go of the urge to cut.
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
My name is Stephanie, I am 22. I am not sure whether i am a lesbian or not:( I have crush on woman but not sexually attracting to them. I just want to hold them close, to have them comforting me whenever i feel down or depressed. And i don't have any feeling on man at all. It so confusing for me to deal with it. I am in love with my teacher Sharon, but she is straight and have a boyfriend. I love her with all my heart and soul and it hurt me so badly inside to see that she is not with me.:(
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Love Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Anger Management
I have a huge anger problem that really going out of hand. I fly off the handle very easily. I got violent, start yelling and screaming bloody murder. It damaging my relationship with my parents.:(
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Crying Working / Worked
- Cry all my anger out.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Group Therapy Considering
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Never give up on me.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Express anger without using violent.
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Insomnia
I can't sleep and i always tossing and turning.:(
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- Paxil Working / Worked
Open Sexual Abuse
Some guys and boys at high school exposed himself to me. Got sexually harassed by guys on the street. And some guy touched me inappropriately.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Trying to unlocked those repressed memory.
Open Schizophrenia
My brother has been diagnose with schizophrenia by his doctor. He doesn't live in the US. We are trying to apply him to come to the US. After a physical/mental examination, the doctor said he is a schizophrenic.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Family Issues
Brother is an epilepstic and schizophrenic. Mom is not always at home.And she is always moody and irritatable. Very unpredictable. Feeling sad, alone and very confused.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Love Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Crying Working / Worked
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Dependent Personality DisorderI am not sure if i have any personality disorder. But i always suspect that i may have BPD and DPD
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Love Working / Worked
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
Painful Cramps. Depression.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Love Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My mom used to hitted me with a stick and i got a big bruised at the thigh. And she sometime will called me name:(
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Talked to my professor-Sharon, who was also used to suffered from depression help, She understand and never judge me. She is so patient and always there to listen.
- Crying Working / Worked
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I got obsessed very easily. I got obsessed over people, celebrity on tv.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open College Stress
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
- Just to get stuff off my chest
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Healthy Relationships
I am having trouble getting close to people. I am scare of rejection.
Treatments
Open Codependency
I am always cling to people that i know i can't have. Like therapist and teacher
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
My brother is addicted to ciggy. He can't quit
Treatments
- Getting Angry Not Working
- My parents will yell at me for this,
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Internet Addiction
My life revolved around the internet. I go online every day for a long time
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Coming Out
I am not sure if i am gay or not, just very confused and frustrated, it make me so depressed.
Open Accidents
My brother got stabbed more than 13 times on him.
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