Mind, Driving, and sitting with the symptoms
July 25, 2008 12:16pm
I've done OK today.... it's been tough as I am pushing myself now and it's not easy, however I am making some progress. …
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About Me
I am emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually fatigued... The past 4 years have been real corkers in lots of ways, as I reflect back there is no bloody wonder I am where I am right now!!!! Those who know me know my story and any new friends I pick up along the way if we get to know each other well will learn more about my situ. I long to get back to taking part in life and eventually the work that I love. I'm just coming to terms with the fact that I have to let go of impossible wants and that it is going to take time and small tiny steps to move forward, I can't rush things. I need to build myself up in order to find me again.... I am a fun loving, passionate, driven and focused woman who is struggling to find those qualities within herself and maintain wellness right now! I have wonderful support from DS, My husband, My family and friends in RL... It's a struggle, they remain there for me routing for me to get well x
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Holistic Health, Yoga, Self Development, Property Investment, Nature, Travel, Pampering, Having FUN, FOOD!... At the moment surviving & learning to live in the moment...
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Thanks for the advice guys :)
July 24, 2008 1:41pm
Hey!!!
I'm okish today :)
Been out with Mind, drove to supermarket, my favourite place in the world!!!!
Little bit sad re an …
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Mixed day...
July 23, 2008 2:39pm
Been out with MIND, in my bubble :( Did it anyway
Had a massage, managed to relax a bit..
THEN went to Doctors, he was a fuck wit... patronising …
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Beauty fading in to nothingness...
July 22, 2008 5:57am
Today's message from the Universe...
The funny thing, is that in spite of the euphoria one feels upon entering paradise, cloaked …
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Most productive day in months...
July 21, 2008 1:34pm
Car MOT'ed ok it's a month late, no bother...
Chatted to my new mate Julia, did abit of career coaching with her, formulated a …
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Hi vic ,well after hours with the gp yesterday ,they admitted her ,but being the wonderful(crap) NHS ,she was let out today ,again!Infact ,they allowed her to walk out ,having not eaten ,dehydrated ,weak and a liability to herself.We got a call that she was half an hour away from the hospital ,i just couldnt belive my ears! So ,back to square one matey!Ugh i HATe our system! Hope your feeling brighter ,have a peaceful day babes ,loves you ,sharon xoxoxooxox
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Good afternoon Vic! Here's lickin at you!!!! xoxo! Gord.
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Its was a bloody expensive can of hairspray, Loreal a well known make! Im writing a letter of complaint today! xx
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Not sure whats happened with your Doc, but have a peek at this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hh...
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im terrible, the sightest bump,and i gotta get it....wont stop till i draw blood....lol x
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have suffered from major depression since the age of 23, although I had more minor episodes well before that. Currently in a long and horrible bout that has been very difficult to shift. Life is a real rollercoaster at the moment, looking for friends to link up with, people that really understand & to give/receive mutual support... I have had LONG periods of wellness during the last 15 plus years in fact 10 whole years altogher when I tot them up, it's this I must hang on to!
Treatments
- Celexa Too Soon to Tell
- Citalopram, don't think it really did anything have now changed my meds was taking 40mg...now 30mg Mirtazapine - Scrapped bloody awful stuff! Now 40mg Prozac - PLEASE WORK!!!!
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helped to a point, I'm not very disciplined though!
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I cry alot!
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Did work when I had it 7 years ago, the fog lifted almost immediately and I had a 5 year good run until by Granddad passed away.
- Hypnotherapy Working / Worked
- Has been helpful in the past - use self hypnosis as part of meditation
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- I'm working at it
- Prozac Too Soon to Tell
- Relaxation Somewhat Helpful
- again when I can get in to the zone!
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- When I can muster the energy!
- Yoga Somewhat Helpful
- When I can get to do it
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Did work in the early days...
Close Anxiety
Linked to Depression, can get so bad I don't want to go out! Do get panic attacks from time to time. More of a General Anxiety Disorder which goes away for the most part when the depression lifts, although Anxiety can hit and bring on a bout of depression. Chicken and Eggs and all that!
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- Can help to relax and switch off the obsessive thinking
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- when I can force myself to do it!
- Valium Somewhat Helpful
- Take when gets really bad!
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
My hormones play havoc with the depression, makes it even worse.
Open Bereavement
Had three major losses in my life: My Nan in 2002, My Grandad to suicide in 2005 (he was heart broken and lonely without my Nan) & my father in law last year to Lung Cancer. Also dealing with loss issues around my Mum as we have fallen out, it's a life long story... feeling too hurt and angry to put this right at the moment. EDIT: OH forgot to update we made up months ago, boundaries in place though ;) Now another loss :( MY BEST FRIEND, not died just out of my life, it's in my journal- sad...)
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Getting Angry Not Working
- Wish I could
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Time Working / Worked
- They say it is the greatest healer
Open Healthy Sex
Discovery: I actually need some! And now I'm definitely getting some... edit: WELL I WAS NOW THAT IS ON HOLD!!! EDIT: Mmmmmmm this is going to be a toughie now.... Watch this space ;)
Treatments
- Patience Too Soon to Tell
- & TOO ILL TO CARE RIGHT NOW!
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