MesoWidow’s Profile

Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

I was married to the most wonderful man for 30+ years. On our 30th Wedding Anniversary my sweet husband was diagnosed with Mesothelioma. He passed away after eight horrific months. I am an RN (disabled)and I cared for him at home. It is now 22 months since my hubby passed away and I finally finding myself.

Treatments

Crying Working / Worked

Tears seem to help let off some of the pain. I'm now of the belief that tears can be healing. I've shed enough tears to fill an ocean.

Getting Angry Working / Worked

I'm learning to let go of my anger. There is no one to blame for my husband's illness.

Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful

Keeping busy tends to dull my mind and just put off things until another time. Dealing with grief is work, you can't run away from it. It finds you.

Music Working / Worked

There is a wonderful song: Miracle River. It has helped me so much. It tells the story of a painful journey with miracles at the end of the road.

Pets Working / Worked

I adopted a wonderful little Puggle, Franz. I had to give him away, my grandson has allergies. I had to give away my precious cat, Scooter, too. I miss my sweet Scooter and I would love to have a dog! I'm hoping when my grandson is older I may be able to adopt a hairless~~~!!!

Prayer Not Working

I am very angry at God. I feel abandoned and punished. What did my husband or I ever do to deserve this? Why did he take such a righteous man!?!?

Psychotherapy Not Working

I paid hundreds of dollars for someone to listen to me, it was a waste of time and my energy. My daughter and mother are better listeners and care more about me!

Reading Too Soon to Tell

Most of the books I've read on widowhood have not been helpful. I'm really considering writing about my own experiences. I feel I have something to offer others by sharing my story.

Remembering Somewhat Helpful

The pain of remembering has started to be just a little less painful. I'm hopeful that with time and work, I'll be able to become a better person.

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

My daughter is my rock and my lifeline. I don't know what I would have done without her.

Talking Working / Worked

Opening up and letting out your pain is so healing. It took me way too long to express my feelings.

Time Too Soon to Tell

When it comes to grief, time doesn't matter. It's what you do with that time. The pain of grief dulls with time, but how much time is different for each person.

Close Mesothelioma

My husband passed away 4/06 from Meso. His diagnosis came on our 30th Wedding Anniversary. There is no cure for Meso, there is only pain and suffering. No one should have to endure this disease.