Kaitrin's Journal

I don't have any days of sobriety left. I don't have any in the immediate future.But--to those of you recovering--I admire you so so amazingly much.Ginger,sweetie:I'm okay.I come off so bad,so negative I know but I am fine,and due in large part to you.I just will never give up on your happiness,as you never give up on mine, I never could.I am tapering off drionking rathe han stopping altogether.So im fine.

  And Danielle,if you read this--you have een such a wonderful suport!I do owe every day,week,MONTH of sobriety I have to you and to my AA sponsor.Youve been incredible and Im so proud of you and admire you so much.Things WILL get better for you.Hang on.

           And to every one of you who has skimmed these too dense journals,thank you.And to those who've left comments or concern,thank you SO MUCH.I hope there is something understandable.I'm so sorry if I am too graphic.Too negative.Im sorry if I seem like a bad mother and you worry for my child but,truth is,she is just fine.She is the reason I am getting better,why I will.I love her as you love your children,painfuly much.Too i look forward so much to watching her grow and find her place in the world.

  I'm sorry, and I wish for each of you(all of you,including all those who do not read this,all D.S., and my family) happiness and continued healing and hope.