Bluecat2's Journal

Mixed feelings today. I am aware that I and some of the people I love have made progress in who we are as people and that is encouraging and also a relief. BUT.... I am wishing today. There's an old nursery rhyme that says: "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride.". In other words, wishes are free for anybody, but they don't change things. Well, I'm still wishing today. Wishing there was ten times as much money in the family, three times as much living space, etc, etc. I'm sure I could go on wishing all day, every day. I've probably spent a good part of my life wishing. Wishing is the flip side of frustration for me. Other people's temperaments might lead them elsewhere, but for me, frustration leads to wishing. Because I've never had much of a clue how to fix any of my problems or wants. So I have always had this massive frustration. Bfphbfphbfph: that's a big raspberry to frustration.