KDraider16's Journal

Emily comes home tomorrow Emily comes home tomorrow Emily comes home tomorrow Emily comes home tomorrow!!!! Yay! so yeah she comes home tomorrow. And I haven't eaten anything since yesterday! I just had a confrence about my paper and it's good just gotta fix a few things. and I don't want to go to work tomorrow. and I'm gonna miss a party where I could have gone and made $50! but no I have to work! Guess that makes Emily happier. I[m sure all of you read yesterdays entry...Emily and I have lost the spark. Well what do you expect. we haven't really lost the spark it's just been dimmed down to what it was before we actually met. It like blew up when we physicall met and now it's back to what it was and that's dimmer then what it was when we met in person. so of course the spark is dimm. and on top of that both of us aren't peppy people right now cause we're still dealing with being sparated after being together. this is all normal. but for emily it's cause for freak out break down. I'm not worried. I still love her and we still have a spark. And well have a spark come next month and come june and all that. There is no spark lost it's just dimmed but try and explain that to emily. please. I don't know. We're both at fault in our own ways if we have lost the spark...thought I don't think we have. Yeah I didn't talk to emily for over 48 hours until yesterday and all she does it take the time to yell at me then make me feel bad cause we lost the spark. Made me feel great. I'm sure she didn't purposely mean to do that but still it hurt when she started to tell me that she thinks that I've lost the spark for her or I don't love her as much as I did and lately I've been distant towards her. and a bunch of other things. Made me feel like shit. I don't blame hher for it cause well I've done that to her so its only fair. I don't know. As Walter (jeff Dunham) would say "she rolled over in bed this morning and jumped on her menstrlcycle and RAN MY ASS OVER!" lol. Any way I gotta go to gym now. Later everyone.