KDraider16's Journal

four weeks. 4 WEEKS! Yep four weeks until I move. That's 4 weeks until I start my life all over again. And I'm hoping that will be with Emily but right now things are rocky and I really don't want to focus on it. I kinda gotta focus now on having a life with Emily while at the same time not having one with her. I gotta try and be 50/50 on it. So I can build up the strength to move on and move out if something happens between Emily and I while at the same time focusing on moving towards her. I gotta be ready. But enough of that. It's private matters, not DS' sorry. Anyway. Work has been long and interesting but it keeps me busy. I got my new computer and the stuff with it for college. Now all I gotta do is get the gas money and my loans for school figured out. There's not much more left to write. My mind is still wrapping around everything and it's still all too confusing for me to start to write anything. But I'm trying and cause if I don't do this my chances of Emily and I being what we were diminishes and I can't have that. How your whole like and relationship an be fucked up just because you took 10 months to tell your girlfriend something so tiny it wasn't important that happened when you were 12. After that you get called a liar and your life and relationship falls apart in a night. It all moved way too fast...it still is. And I'm at a loss as to what the hell I'm doing or where I'm going. gotta start taking care of me.... 4 weeks and i'll start a new...that's what I have to look forward to. I can do this. 4 weeks.