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Friday, July 25, 2008 | A General Update story

WELL i STARTED OUT THE DAY WITH 2 HRS ON A MRI AND WENT TO THE SHOP. i BROKE OUT ALL MY FOLDERS AGAIN AND HAVE TO GET ON THE BALL. WE HAD 2 SALES AT THE SHOP 2DAY, IT SUCKS WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE A PAY CHECK FOR SURE, AND WITH THIS MARKET ROCKS HAVEN'T BEEN HIGH ON THE HAVE TO GET LIST. i HAVE A REPAIR JOB FOR THE FENCE CO BUT I'M HURT TO BAD RIGHT NOW TO DO IT. I DID GET SOME IDEAS FOR THINGS TO MAKE AND TRY TO MARKET AT OUR SHOP BUT SENSE I HAVEN'T BEEN THERE MENTALLY I JUST COULDN'T DO IT. THE HARD PART IS I HAVE TO DO WHAT I GOT TO IN ORDER TO KEEP A ROOF OVER POPS HEAD AS WELL AS MINE, WHILE OUR HOUSE STILL ISN'T FINISHED. I KNOW IT'S HARD ON ME BUT WHAT IF I WERE 82 LIKE MY FATHER HOW WOULD I FEEL THEN. IT'S JUST BEEN A COUPLE WEEKS PAST 1 YR LOSS OF MY MOM AND SISTER. I GUESS RIGHT NOW I NEEDS POPS AS WELL AS HE NEEDS ME. HIS HEALTH ISN'T THE BEST AND MY SISTER, IF I CAN CALL HER THAT ISN'T COMMING DOWN. I JUST GOT A FEELING. I MIGHT END UP WRITING A BOOK ON WHAT NOT TO DO. i GOING TO HAVE TO GET BACK TO BASICS AND START ALL OVER. I JUST DON'T KNOW.

UPDATED GOALS

Get back into shape!

Progress 13%

Current Weight (Lbs)

240

Encouragements: 2

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You are being so strong wally. And You are doing everything in your power to keep your family together.
God will provide you will the strength , both physcial and spiritual that you need!
Is anyone providing you with assistance, in the meantime to help you, with food, shelter or clothing ?
Please let me know if there is something I can do to help you.
I cant imagine the pain of your loss. But please know your mom and sister are in heaven now, with Jesus, and are not suffering any pain. They are so proud of you for your courage and strength to help yourself and those around you!

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