Cici42066's Journal

Journal Entry for May 9, 2008 Mood

Friday, May 9, 2008

I actually got finished with work early today...Yippee for me...I needed it...I know I say the economy is horrible and I am wondering what summer is gonna be like I have been blessed to be busy...My last couple of snowbirds are leaving this week...I am going to miss them...They are such great women...

Getting home early is helping me get in some of the spiritual time that I so need...I think I am drained because of all the family issues I have had with the dogs...Hopefully it is all over with...I need to just concentrate on my relationship with God and surround myself with positive people...

I haven't been putting scriptures in my journal here...I have been doing settingcaptivesfree everyday though...Actually it is bringing up more emotions than I thought...I have done 12 steps before I thought I had dealt with most of it...I am dealing more with what is happening now really...

The song Cry Out To Jesus is on now...It is such a great song...I know people in all of those different circumstances...I have always minimized myself because I knew people had greater problems than I did...I wasn't molested...My parents are divorced...I wasn't beaten...So I would pray for myself and others...

My parents were overwhelmed by having four kids...It should have only been 2, if any...I didn't have it hard growing up...It wasn't perfect...I was the oldest so I have taken the perfectionist route...I'm the mother hen type...I usually don't fight with my siblings...Really the only time is when a partner is involved...

My parents are the cold type...They are not lovey dovey...I wear my emotions on my sleeves...I am crying over the child is hungry...animals...etc...I am guilty of loving...

Anyways I am going to end now...I am going to listen to Celebrate Recovery tonight...I was gonna go but my little niece is being fussy so my sister and I are going to watch from home...We enjoy it...We actually have a pew in the house...It was our pastors...I find myself in that pew alot...I am attached to it now...

God Bless anyone who reads this...