KrusH's Journal

My anxiety is coming back i guess

Like the whole last week

whenever i try to sleep

i feel like im suffocating

The otehr day whenever i fell asleep during the night

i would wake up

because i STOPED breathing

But only at night

i just cant sleep once the sun is down

If its up

im tired

i hurt more

and i can sleep without my breathing stoping!

and still, my mom wont belive me

cuz shes evil

i remember when i could sleep at night

what calmed me down

let me rest...

                                                                            Why not?

ah i dont want people to know again

everyone thinks im doing so well

and i hate when i dissapoint them

                                                                           its not about them, its about us

ahhh! i dont want to think like that

i care about them

                                                                           they dont care about you

Not true! ahhh! Why do i have to deal with this?

its soo much worse with the anxiety

i wish i could block him out

but nope

hes here to stay

                                                                            You know what makes it all better

And its like that all the time

just imagine

arg

                          AND

soo much pain

i have to walk to school, or not go

and it hurts so abd right now

i cant walk that far

so i lay in bed alone and in pain

life is fun