KLSar's Journal

Day 49 - Part 2

i wrote this morning too, which is unusual, but hey, when you feel like writing, then why not do it? if i want to wrote 5 times a day i will! anything is better than binging right???

i got sucked in to a "what not to wear" marathon on TLC today. i looooove makeover shows and i just couldnt get away. i told myself i'd go to the gym once i got bored and needed to get out of the house. however, that never happened. now that i'm feeling like i want something to do, i'm too tired to go work out. its weird how for the past, like, 3 years i've put going to the gym before anything else and now i'm having trouble getting my butt there. its like i can't get eating well AND working out both into my life. when i was working out all the time i was still binging and now that i'm not binging i'm having a hard time getting to the gym or class.  well, my friends, its time this changes and i will be working out, either at the gym or class, 5 days a week (as long as work doesnt get in the way. since i work a lot of 10+ hour days i'm gonna have to give myself a pass on those days if needed). i just cant do what i did today, which was that whole "i'll go later" thing. we all know that never works, and now i've proved it to myself. i need to go first thing in the morning ( like i've always done until recently) no matter what's happening on "regis and kelly" or "the view". its basically first thing in the morning or never (except classes cuz i can't pick what time they're at....i can just chose which one i want to go to and stick to that plan....a little more difficult than the gym plan). off to the gym tomorrow morning!

my butt kinda hurts from sitting all day...how sad

i was motivated to go for a walk this afternoon though. its amazing what a little money can do. today, in the mail, i got 3 paychecks from jobs i did last week, my last paycheck from my previous job in san francisco, and a check from my old roommate who is slowly paying me back a whole bunch of money. i've been freaking for the past week or so about what i'm gonna do about my bills coming up. but, with all this money i recieved today, i have no more worries cuz they're all set! woohoo! i felt so relieved. so i walked to the bank to deposit them right away just to calm myself. since i've been working and living on my own without my parents' help i've never lived paycheck to paycheck. so this is different for me. its also different cuz i'm actually working a job i enjoy! this is the time in my life where i'm taking happiness over money....lets see how long i can make this last!