is feeling Good
I've been trying to think of something i can put here that i won't have to change constantly. since my life is a roller coaster, it's hard for even me to keep up with it. I'm young. I am living with something that may or may not be bipolar disorder (i don't know if i trust doctors who say i am) and i am also living with being a drug addict. obviously. i have a hard time dealing with life and my emotions, yes. but i am trying my best to get by and just living one day at a time.
mountain dew, ketchup, breaking benjamin, driving around, shopping, ice cream, puzzles, movies
May 28, 2008 9:01pm
It's been a while so here's an update. I am doing okay today. Haven't used. haven't been overly depressed in a few days. i actually …
May 14, 2008 5:53pm
so here's the scoop. i am going to start the outpatient drug rehab thing very shortly. i have been talking to one of the counslers there. well, i …
May 6, 2008 12:17am
perhaps it is time for a new journal entry. i am still feeling rather crappy. i dont think that will change anytime soon so i guess i'll have to …
April 28, 2008 2:25pm
Oh god, i don't even know where to start. I am feeling like total shit each and everyday. i can't sleep right at night. i have crazy dreams …
April 22, 2008 9:47pm
OKAY I NEED TO GET SOMETHING OUT. and i'm not proud of this. but as an addict, it's really not surprising. i can't stop thinking about …
hi to you Sara from another Sara in London your story sounds so much like mine i started on gear at 23 .ive had periods of being clean then splatt on my face im now 44 and clean of gear for years but still on methadone with a real pill problem and getting treated for hepc now but you are so much more aware of what you need than me keep it one day at a time like you said and please accept thlongdistance hug and all good thoughts to you saraxox ps love your Stewie G and yeah he IS 1 sexy beast!! Take Care
HUG
hope all is well.
hugs to you
hey sara,how you been doing hope well,if you need to get anything out im a great listner,take care hope to hear from you soon...peace
I started using frequently around March 2006. Was introduced to it a while before but never pursued it. But I became addicted for most of 2006. Until I overdosed and almost lost my life. It's been a rough road since then and I want to just beat this and stay clean.
Been suffering from depression for many years. Have taken tons of medication, been to lots of therepists yet i still struggle to handle my emotions and hatred for myself.
I admit I have a problem. If there are pills around, I will take them. I need to stop this.
I can't remember a time when I haven't been shy. I feel so uncomfortable around people that i just want to crawl into a corner and hide. Shyness is something that I will probably need my whole life to get over.
I've been grinding for years. I do it and I don't even notice half the time. I have no insurance or money to go to the dentist and get treated either. I don't get headaches from it though but i know i'm destroying my teeth.
I've had acne on and off since i hit puberty. Lately it's been more on. I just can't seem to make it go away. Even doctor prescribed things stop working after a while. Not sure if i'll ever be acne free.
I am not a constant cutter but I've done it several times. It wasn't to get attention, it was because i was just feeling so horrible, i wanted to physically feel how emotionally in pain i was. if that makes any sense.
I'm a woman. What more is there to tell? God, I hate it.
I was fine until halloween. Can't explain the sudden burst of depression so i'm guessing its S.A.D. trying to get by the best i can during the winter.
I'm extremely dependent on my boyfriend for happiness because i can't find it within myself. i am dependent on drugs to help me escape life because i hate that as well. i'm just a mess.
i don't even know what to say about this. i have probably been misdiagnosed for years. but as far as i see, i am bi polar. my moods shifts constantly and i can't contol it.
