Journal Entry for January 1, 2008
January 1, 2008 9:51pm
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immanical
is feeling Horrible
About Me
Im obssessed with music. Ive currently written about 120 poems and/or songs and it doesnt seem to take me long to actually write them. I play the guitar and want a bass and a drum kit and a mandolin. Ive been depressed for over 2 years. tried to kill myself about six times i think.
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Music, movies, poetry
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Journal Entry for November 14, 2007
November 14, 2007 5:57pm
Hey, i havent been on this for a while. Sorry. ive changed alot in the last two weeks. ive got my drivers license and a girlfriend. Im not sure what …
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Journal Entry for October 27, 2007
October 27, 2007 5:54am
I wish i was fucking dead. my life is pointless. i dont acheive. i cant please the people around me. my own friends dont know my name. wow i can play …
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Journal Entry for October 23, 2007
October 23, 2007 9:47am
I want to cut. im not sure why. i just want to hurt myself. its like this deep impulse. im not sure where i comes from. what is my life? Do i …
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Journal Entry for October 23, 2007
October 23, 2007 4:34am
how was my day? firstly i have nothing to do because i have almost finished school forever. secondly, my english teacher called me a 'bloody …
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The reason you are recieveing hugs from me this morning is I lost a bet with your ds friend lafirefighter, and I am obligated to state the following: The LSU tigers (from the great state of Louisiana)manhandled and domindated my OSU buckeyes and deserve to be the national champions.
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIve been clinically depressed since i was 15. i dont really know what to do anymore. ive tried to kill myself three and i self harm.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Working / Worked
Close Anxiety
Im fearful of what people think of me. I overanalyse how people. Why they have said certain things and how they could have said it differently. It has generated this deep paranioa. i think i am slowly getting better but i can never truly tell.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Not Working
Open Self-Injury
I began cutting and burning myself last year. Because i hide my emotions from everyone i let it build up to to a point were i just snap and hurt myself.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Hand & Foot Abnormalities
I dont have any joints in my thumbs or index fingers which has affected my confidence. I still seem to play guitar really well (Can i say that without sounding cocky, come on im very modest).Im scared people think im a freak. It has added to me losing my confidence in myself and what i do.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Antisocial Personality Disorder (APD)Im paranoid. I hate people watching what i do. I always look down and i only look into the eyes of people i trust deeply. Otherwise i avoid eye contact
Open Panic Attacks
I start to breathe really heavily and have collapsed before.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Not Working
Open Dizziness & Vertigo
I get alot of headaches and i get dizzy. i think that its due to intense stress.
Open Eating Disorders
I wouldnt consider what i have an eating disorder but their are times when i do skip meals on purpose. i sometimes dont feel the need to eat. i guess that would be signs of anorexia. I probably wouldnt eat if my parents werent around (Not as much anyway). I lost 5kg once because i stopped eating. Thats quite alot considering im barely 50kg to start with.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I had major sugery when i was 15 and im stil not over it. All the pain and suffering and images that come to mind still hurt me. I think its what started my depression and caused me to become very isolated and alone.
Open Depression - Teen
Since i was 15 i have suffered from severe depression. I hide it as much as i can but sometimes my true feelings just come out.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- Do i need something stronger? It just makes me tired.
Open Bipolar Disorder
Im not sure if i have Bipolar. Im starting to think that maybe i do. im not sure. Can someone please help me?
Open Restless Legs Syndrome
Whenever im nervous or stressed my leg shakes or my hands shake. its annoying and makes me panicy
Open Phobia
Type: Social Phobiai hate being around alot of people at once and i hate being watched.
Open Insomnia
I dont sleep well in general
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