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Friday, June 27, 2008

Hey everybody, right now i dont even know how im gonna title this or what theme, it could be lots of them.

Yday i took Caitlyn to Dr bout her ingrown toenail. He told her the exact same thing i did, soak it in epson salt. $20 for that. lmao I did get him to put in her chart bout her eye so i have it even more documented. Also got my valiums from him. Boy, have i needed them.

Yday my son in law had the surg (open heart to repair a valve). As far as i know today, everything is ok. Hubby & the girls when down to see him. I did see him yday but he wasnt awake yet, all hooked up. I see my daughter (Sis aka Melissa) w red eyes. I go to comfort her & she pushes me away. Im like "WTF"??? She said i babying her. All the fuck im trying to do is comfort her. Oh, she doesnt have any idea how hurt i was from her. I give up. I dont know what the fuck to do. I know at least her, not sure bout Don, but i know they been pissed off at me for awhile now. Seems her & Jason, my son, r close now. Im happy for that. They need ea other.

As im typing this, im crying & getting high, u know, smoking weed.

Today is britts bday. She didnt want anything i fix, she wants to go out. LMFAO like we have the $$$ for that right now.

Oh ya, my mom called me bout the Price is Right tickets. If i wanted to go. I told her no, i have too much bullshit im going thru right now & i was only a last resort person. The others they wanted couldnt go. I know my mom, thats the kinda bitch she is.

I just cked the front doorway. I wrapped up some lil things for Sis aka Melissa. A lil ceramic puppy from TJ. I have 1 for Jason too & 1 for me but im the mama dog. I got those when it was just the 3 of us. They r special to me. I also wrapped up her seramice babay bootie, a lil indian girl i got 25 yrs ago, u see, she & jasons dad was 1/2 indian & 1/2 mexican. The kids r 1/4 indian & mexican & 1/2 white. I would by lil indian figurines for them. *crying* Anyhow, hubby took the box.

Oh ya, another thing bout today. 2 yrs ago today, britts bday, i found Debbie dead in her bed. She had been there bout 10 days.

What a joyful day it is today. NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do love ya all, u have kept me sane. PLZ keep me sane today

Cathy

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guess i didnt need a theme or title

girlie4721
So sorry for your awful day hun! I am envious you have weed though. sorry, that's not helpful, I know. Take some slow, deep breaths and try your best to relax as much as you can. These things will pass, and you are stronger than you think!
I am sending you much love and also some peace. xoxox -Daisy

Daisylou
wow sweetie Damn I don;t really no what to say but thats a lot for you to have to swallow this day is almost gone hope tomorrow will be better BIG hugs hun I wish i was there to give you a real one and get you stoned I know i would be !

repoman1
you are going through a lot right now....

hugs and love!

BeautyforAshes
Looks like you have alot to deal with right now. Take it slow, and one thing at a time. Wishing you the best, hope it all gets better soon. XXXOOO Lance

nadareal3
I'm sorry that your having a rough go of things. Just make sure to take care of yourself take things slow... *BIG BIG HUGS* Much Love

shallowbay
oh cathy,
u do have A LOT to deal with today; i am sorry, my friend for your loss, and how your sister reacted to u; u r a WONDERFUL person, and it shows how sweet u r just by putting special things together for your family; i am always here for u, honey; wish i could be there with u right about now passing "it" along

*sandy*

mccargo
So sorry Cathy.. you have been through way to many hard things. I am so sorry. I know things will get better for you. I appreciate your friendship..

meandthebeast