guitarbabe's Journal

sitting here so cold and alone
no one to talk to, everyone gone
my hands shaking, my skin crawling
the light is gone, my ears fading
im thinking about you
all of you that helpd me
and also all of you that have hurt me
most are in between
but you should know where you stand
wether with me or against me
i hope all can forgive me for what i have planned
most people look at me and see the outside
not the in
but for you sara for sticking with me till the end
and you emily, always saying your my friend
but the rest im not so sure
will anything ever be finished?
or will it all fall apart?
knowing things were going to change
reluctlant and afraid, i took my mask off
for all to see what was inside
but they all looked at me with disapointment
will i ever be accepted into this world of hate?
to my aunt who pushed me
and kept me strong
to my uncle who kept me safe
i think my only choice now 
is to say goodbye
and wish all of you a good life
while i lie here to night and breakdown
and die.