chrurop's Journal

June 3, 2008

i got last night off due to overstaffing which is exactly what i needed.  sometimes the night shift can just wear you down.  so i was on here for a couple of hours last night and a lot this morning, sent some hugs to a few people to see how they were doing and etc.  i have been reading post after post.

i have decided that i'm not going to feel sorry for myself anymore.  i am who i am.  i don't know why i have low self-esteem, i shouldnt'  i have so much to be thankful for.  i have 4 beautful adult children, a beautiful grandson, sisters, brother.  i have wonderful supportive friends, i have a wonderful belief in God.  and i do believe there is a plan for me.

so i'm going to try and just relax, enjoy what i have, i also have a profession that keeps me financially independent.  i have a beautiful apartment owned by my daughters boyfriend. 

i'm going to keep coming onto to ds and reading all the positive posts and keep moving on with my life, i very much enjoy trying to help the newcomers over the beginning devastation of break-up and divorce and let them know it will get better. 

i'm tired of why me, why can't somebody love me, heck there are a lot of people that love me, i just have to open my eyes and look.  it is truly my exs loss, not mine.  i'm going to try and be the best person i can be. working toward happiness and contentment.   thanks for listening.  linda