Goober629's Journal

so he goes for surgery on Thursday and my sister in law  (his brothers wife) might go so someone will be there for him from the family (his brother is stil pissed and you know he's all alone, so he says)  He said that would be fine if she came but theres a chance SHE might be there.  She said ok.  What about healing, is she gonna stay and take care of you??  No I'm gonna take care of myself (if shes at the hosp for a 12 hour day, why wouldn't she be there playing nurse???)  He knows she talks to me....... why lie??   Why play the poor me i'm all alone?? 

I just can't believe he chosse her.  That he thinks i was this evil bitch.  He doesn't want or need me there.  I can't make him feel better about it.  and he deoesn't need to talk to me.   GET OVER IT ALREADY MARIA!!!!!!!!!!!

I should feel relief.  the med bills are bad, the stress of his moods is her prob.  I'm just gonna have the mans money!!  He's not gonna be able to do anything :O)

He'll see how good he had it. 

I want him to know how how hurt me.  i want him to feel that.  I want him to be sorry for it (so much it hurts).  i want her to know while shes waiting for her WHATEVER he is to her, that 6 months ago I was in that room crying and waiting for him.  That he was my world for 9 years and that he still is my kids world......even if he's pussy whipped right now.  We're not going away but if theres a God she will