Whitney23's Journal

Well, yesterday I didn't binge.  I was so afraid my roommate would walk in on me, and not bingeing was extremely hard, but afterwards I felt better.  I had already gone out and bought the food, and I had planned on bingeing today after all my classes, but this morning when I got up, I was scared.  I can't really explain what I was afraid of...it's almost like I had an intuitive feeling that something bad would happen if I threw up today.  Then I thought about using the binge food I bought in a positive way:  after my dinner tonight, having ONE pastry, just enough to satisfy my craving instead of eating the whole box and throwing up.  I'm still going through an awkward phase because I still feel fat, but I know if I give it a few days of eating healthy (if I can without bingeing) that I'll start to feel semi-good about myself.  I don't know....we'll see...