Sighted
August 15, 2008 1:14pm
I saw my first grasshopper of the season today. Fortunately, it was one of the little iridescent green ones instead of the big olive-drab and grey …
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high2low
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About Me
I work as an engineer in the St. Louis area. I live alone with 2 black cats. One named Samhain (Celtic for Halloween, she also has orange eyes)and the other is named Marlene. I lean to the left politically and love animals (though I still eat some of them, curious.) I am the second of four children but I have the characteristics of a middle child.
Interests
Reading, staring at the wall, yoga, biking, crosswords, cooking, talking to imaginary people, chess, NPR, finding the perfect coffee, keeping the extraterrestrials in their place, classical music and British comedy. Also antique cars, tacky '50's cuisine and keeping the tobacco lobby in business.
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high2low commented on NJgrl’s journal entry Goal Update 5:49pm
Congrats on taking another step toward what you want to achieve. Don't worry too much about the variable…
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high2low updated their status 5:42pm
Spinning out of control. Center will not hold.…
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you are NOT a freak...crazy for riding a bike so late at night but not a freak
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you are too kind....and lets see...it aint either of our mothers so WHO could you be talking about????Oh you mean me....ty dw
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with what was first thought to be "simple" depression in 2001 after fighting feelings of worthlessness and mixed highgs and lows for many years. I can remember being so up in college that I would study for hours and then be unable to get up a week later. Bipolar stared me in the face for most of my life. Thinking back it should have been diagnosed in my teen years at the latest. My "official" bipolar diagnosis came in 2003 after my first hospitalization for suicidal thoughts.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- Put me to sleep and thats about it.
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Kept the symptoms at by for 2 years, but still kept me with the roller coaster
- Depakote Somewhat Helpful
- Started taking it in early 2006. Stopped in late 2007.
- Geodon Not Working
- Short term success at best.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- Currently at 150 mgs/day and working pretty well.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- 1800 mgs now and it has done a far better job than Depakote and controlling the mood swings. The weight loss is nice too.
- Risperdal Somewhat Helpful
- Above 1mg, I am a zombie. Keeps the intrusive thoughts at bay.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Up to 300 mg/day. helps alot.
Close Self-Injury
A little external pain can sometimes take care of a lot of internal pain. Not always a good idea.
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- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Have been working with a therapist for 5 years. She tells me it is a "leftover" from my child sexual abuse. EMDR has helped.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Marginally successful. It is just not the same.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Can talk about it to certain friends who get it.
Open Alcoholism
Alcohol is a crutch for me. I know what it does to me, but I drink anyway. It needs to stop
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- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- only thing that has worked in the past. avoid it all together
- Willpower Working / Worked
- stayed sober for 85 days
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