britknee's Journal

The faucet begins to run

the door is shut and locked

her razor sets by the sink

the time begins to stop

As the time lapses back

broken dorors are re-opened and

old thoughts are re-hatched

Thoughts begin to circle inside her head

she doesnt feel loved or wanted

she wishes she was dead

"YES" she finally says to herself

no more pain will drip inside me

 I can only

hope that death will subside me

Time had begun to unwind the guilt she buried;

and the secrets she harbored

until one day fate met her innocent face

and all these feelings were suddenly wiped away

All her life she heard the same story

of how each person that left her was going to be there

but where are these people now?

I can tell you theyre no where to be found

Imperishable tears stream down her trembled face

her heart is pounding and begins to race

Now she has the razor firmed tightly in her hand

she begins to slash her wrist,

then appears  an image of a dear friend

She pauses to set the bloody razor down

looks in the mirror and gazes upon what she has done

Cut after cut

Bloody wrists here and there

But worst of all she sees the never-ending scars that will forever be dear

The blood has poured out like an endless river

she is faint and blacks out

and has no one there to save her

No one can hear the cries unscreamed

No one can feel the tears that are dry...

So now this confused girl has just took her life

Her little sister walks through the door

only to find her sister dead upon the cold bathroom floor

She shrills and screams and holds her in her tiny little arms

she shakes the body endlessly knowing it wont cause  any harm

All her fears had come true, her sister is gone

As she lays upon her chest in walks her mom

Her moms reaction was blank

ice cold as a matter of fact

That wasnt the case for the little girl who knew her sister wont come back

As the broken hearted girl looks over herself with shame

she now realized the cause of her unhappiness was her spot to blame.

She was loved;

she had a little sister who loved her dear

now that little girl is left with one one to be there

It comes to show you to look deep inside

you always have someone to love and to confide