I think it's just stress that's giving me migraines this week. My mom has always told me that the bigger your kids get the bigger the worries get. She is right, once again. I worry about Camille- my 18-year old because she always has a boyfriend and I don't want her having sex. I know some of her friends smoke pot so I worry about that. I know the rest of them drink, so I worry about that. I trust her enough to let her out of the house, but I wonder if it's a mistake? I can't protect her from the world forever- especially since she'll be leaving for college next fall. It's just SO hard to watch your babies grow up and be independent- and to allow them to make bad decisions.
Brayden is the king of bad decisions lately, although we wiped the slate clean and wrote a behavior/consequence contract and so far he seems to be abiding by it. I hope for everyone's sake involved that it's the key to changing his bad behavior. He's a nice boy when he's behaving. He's funny and adorable and really intelligent. There's obviously something I have to learn from him. Maybe it's just patience and unconditional love, even when he's acting rotten!
Other than worrying about the kids, my life is pretty mellow right now. I'm really excited to be going to Paris in June. Camille's passport came in the mail last week and she looks like a supermodel in her picture. That will be fun for her to look at over the next 10 years.
There's this big craze starting up about 'The Secret.' I think it's silly. It's just teaching people the power of positive thinking and adding a little common sense (don't buy what you can't afford). There is a major component missing which makes it inapplicable to my life. It fails to recognize that everything we have or receive comes from God. No amount of positive thinking will bring us anything without His approval. I feel like for me, any life guidance that leaves God out of the quotient is way off the mark. Not to mention, it's all about achieving material success. Isn't Greed one of the seven deadly sins? If more people would concentrate on spiritual success instead of material success the world would put more value on spirituality and less value on riches. I know it isn't going to happen, but I can make sure my priorities lie in the spiritual.