AlliMac's Journal

I write in red for OVERDRAFT LOL

As a kid I used to save every penny or bday money I got in a card and use money wisely.

Then I met BP.

With the rollercoaster emotional states .....so changes my purse colour!

Sometimes nice notes live there and sometimes its only coins that hug one another in the base of the purse.

When I'm manic.....money is paper ....its water...trnaslucent and will come back to me "next week"....or somehow my glorious gifts/ talents will bring me that mony spent....I get euphoric at the thought of the purchase sometimes even buyin ita nd nveer using it...of I feel so "thoughtful" for others I buy everyone the same thing....6 presents of the sam item!

Then in comes the credit card statement or my bank balance statement with letters over overdraft and fees charged as such....all going in  one continual circle.

I've been livng at home for 3 yrs after my last hosp. I want to start getting my life together and quit being reactive to wanting everything.....or living a champayne life on a show string budget. Even Norms have this prob but I want to get a grip on budgetn....Ad would you believe I've studied accounting!!! Do as I say not as I say hey!! First step is this week I'm attending a community Budgeting night...My mum is dragging me......well i've put my pride aside and aqreed to surrender myself. I want to be responsible and get a house etc..and If I don' t  take control now.......I'll never feel I've achieved anything in life. Terrible when you start comparing to friends etc, but it is time to it together.

I'll try this info night before I start giving bank accounts over to family members....

Wish me luck cause my credit card people won't! LOL They love all the interest $$ I create.