AlliMac's Journal

I write in red for OVERDRAFT LOL

As a kid I used to save every penny or bday money I got in a card and use money wisely.

Then I met BP.

With the rollercoaster emotional states .....so changes my purse colour!

Sometimes nice notes live there and sometimes its only coins that hug one another in the base of the purse.

When I'm manic.....money is paper ....its water...trnaslucent and will come back to me "next week"....or somehow my glorious gifts/ talents will bring me that mony spent....I get euphoric at the thought of the purchase sometimes even buyin ita nd nveer using it...of I feel so "thoughtful" for others I buy everyone the same thing....6 presents of the sam item!

Then in comes the credit card statement or my bank balance statement with letters over overdraft and fees charged as such....all going in  one continual circle.

I've been livng at home for 3 yrs after my last hosp. I want to start getting my life together and quit being reactive to wanting everything.....or living a champayne life on a show string budget. Even Norms have this prob but I want to get a grip on budgetn....Ad would you believe I've studied accounting!!! Do as I say not as I say hey!! First step is this week I'm attending a community Budgeting night...My mum is dragging me......well i've put my pride aside and aqreed to surrender myself. I want to be responsible and get a house etc..and If I don' t  take control now.......I'll never feel I've achieved anything in life. Terrible when you start comparing to friends etc, but it is time to it together.

I'll try this info night before I start giving bank accounts over to family members....

Wish me luck cause my credit card people won't! LOL They love all the interest $$ I create.

I'm actually crap at keeping updates....to busy being busy...Is that being BP? LOL

I did finish this Goal begining of April.

It was challengin course...running boxing shuttle runs, skipping.- 3 times a week at gym- Tue Thurs then 7am Sat (that nearly killed me....I;m never a morning person....more s I g the medicine hangover effect so I feel heavy so running was really devine at 7am NOT...I felt inspired t be Mohamod Ali...LOL BP tryin to start another course or thing to do.

Anyway rambling now.

I plan to complete another course of it JUNE......was a bit like having a personal trainer session but with a group of 8 of us....so not just self focused etc. I like sport a lot but this helpedwith fitness......I won't forget the squats and stomach crunching.....just what I need but the brain didn't think so......Hats off to people who work hard for the Olympics etc.....all that work for 5 mins of glory and some miss out by .01 of a second....Poor buggers!

PS As far as losing weight that was a disappointment.....I put on weight 4kg (Same happened when I increased the exercise when on WW)....they say muscle is heavier than fat....but that does nothing for your pysche or "clothes"......Doesn't make me feel like I'm becoming Nicole Kidman! LOL....BP and Medication has frstrated me with weight gain.... I know its healthier to be on med and bigger but still you get a complex about weight.....how does a single girl feel happy in her skin? Any ideas from BPers for weight management welcome.......I'm happy on Lithium and Lexapro......so I don't want to mess with trying different meds.....Maybe I just have to get over myself! LOL

Over and Out.....Alli Mac

What a week! Started the Boot camp Tuesday......with fitness stations outdoors.

Lots of situps jogging, squats (my legs are walking like I've been riding a horse!), weights, jogging, oh did I say jogging! Huff Puff....I jog regularly but at my pace!!

Biggest Loser Camp comes to mind...buts its great fun. About 10 in the group all girls! No men suprise....does that say men aren't as disciplined!! LOL

Thursday Valentines Day.....how sweet the trainer made us select pink love hearts on paper and behind them...we're 60 pushups for me! Such a lovely gesture.....But it was fun...and beneficial for that waistline I'm going to have! Better than chocolates hey.

Class was spent boxing for an hour outdoors.......great time! I really liked it....

 Got the D& D Ball on this Sat night as well as Grape Grazing during the day with my BP buddies ....we're going in t a minio bus and I'm tour guide!