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I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH BODIE TODAY AT 2:30 MY MOTHER WILL BE COMING TO PICK ME UP TO TAKE ME. SO…
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stressed out i am being laid of in septmber from my job that i have had for 2 1/2 years. so worried but…
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wow rob needs to read your journal he has so much hate toward his ex. you are an amazing person every…
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scared out of my mind. i just have alot on my mind and you are the only one that can help me think straight.…
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hello hun how r u doing ? i am okay for the most part just really stressed out . can you call me on my…
August 27, 2008 3:30pm
Who am I trying to fool
How much more can I pretend
My life is all a mess
And it’s coming to a bitter end
The ground has fallen beneath me
No more …
August 26, 2008 9:51pm
MY LIFE IS A LIVING HELL. I ONLY HAVE FIVE WEEKS TO FIND A NEW JOB OR I AM SCREWED. IT SEEMS NOTHING CAN GO RIGHT IN MY LIFE. MY BOSS IS SUCH A …
August 3, 2008 5:40pm
THIS WEEK HAS BEEN A WEEK FROM HELL. I JUST WANTED IT TO END BUT I KNOW NEXT WEEK WILL JUST BE THE SAME OLD SHIT JUST A DIFFERENT DAY.
LET ME …
July 26, 2008 10:39am
I can’t understand why I can not conceive
I wonder what’s wrong with my body
What wrong with me
I pray to God each and every day
To make …
June 29, 2008 8:15pm
the tears just keep coming
nothing is letting it down
i can't see beyound this point
oh lord please help me
heal me from within
take away my pain …
OK, THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW
oh im soo sorry to hear that!! you'll be in my prayers....im doin ok just been depressed alot this weekend but other than that im been doin ok. keep in touch k, *hugs*
hey hun!! how are you? havent talked to you in awhile...hows everything? miss u lots!! *hugs*
Yep, I sure can. Call in a minute.
Can you talk now? I'm not doing anything right this minute if you need me!
I once was in your shoes. That was my every thought process. There was not a moment that went by that my mind did not think like that. But one day some how it all changed. I have so many scares on my arms and on my legs. At frist I thought this was how i was, and was going to be for the rest of my life. The only thing I ever got out of cutting was the relief of my sadness and anger. But the scares are a remind of my past that I let control who I was and know they will never go away.
I WAS DX WITH BIPOLAR WHEN I WAS SIXTEEN AND IN A MENTAIL HOSPITAL FOR OVERDOSING ON SLEEP ADDS. I FELT I WAS OUT OF PLACE MY WORLD WAS UPSET SIDE DOWN. AND I DID NOT CARE who WAS AROUND TO SEE IT. I HATED LIFE AND NOLONGER WANTED TO LIVE. MY MOOD WOULD GO UP AND DOWN. ONE DAY HAPPY NEXT DAY DEPRESSED. I'M THINKING IN THE BACK OF MY MIND I AM CRAZY!!!! SOME WHAT STILL AM.
IT ALL STARTED WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. I WAS NEVER REALLY A HAPPY CHILD GROWING UP. AND EVEN AS AN ADULT I STILL AT TIMES GET REALLY SAD.
I HAVE BEEN OVER WEIGTH FOR SOME YEARS NOW. AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO BAD INSIDE SOMETIMES TO JUST LOOK AT MY SELF. MOST OF THE TIME I AM REALLY MEAN TOWARDS MYSELF AND IT HARD FOR ME TO EXPLORE SEXUALLY BECAUSE OF THIS PROBLEM. BUT I AM WORKING ON CHANGING THIS
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER MY BROTHER AND STEP FATHER WOULD SEXUALLY RAPE ME AND BEAT ME. AND NOW IT PLAYS A KEY ROLE IN MY OWN SEXUAL LIFE DUE TO THIS . FOR MANY YEARS I BLAMED MYSELF AND MOST OF THE TIME THIS IS THE REASON I HAVE A HRAD TIME TALKING ABOUT HOW I FEEL
LEAENING TO ENJOY THE BEAUTY OF GOOD SEX WAS HARD. BUT KNOW THAT I HAVE I AM NOT READY TO STOP.
HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS: BUILDING FRIENDSHIP AND TRUST AND LOVING EACH OTHER FOR WHO THEY ARE.
