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I wanted to come here and apologise to everyone for everything, for the lack of communication iva had with you, the fact that i've hurt you one way or another, for not being there for you, for being rude, for being selfish, for being the horrible person that i am.
I've done it once again and this is the last time i can be so stupid, i cant take this anymore, people lie and people promise things they cant keep, why? i dont know because theres something wrong with me, something i cant see but others seem to be able to.
Talking helps i've been told by so many people but all its done for me is make everything 10 times worse. I was a mistake, i shouldnt have been born i was never ment to be born and thats why i have no place on earth, i dont belong anywhere.
I know alot of you are going to be angry,mad or upset with me, hurt in someway or another because of this and i am truely sorry for that but my time is up once and for all.
I want so say a special Thank You and tell them how much i love them to:
Aunty Robin, Hopeful0712
Shelle, Bettybelle
Jules, Medway
Stacy, Sunflower20
Mum, Jno4
Deb, Darn
You guys have helped me tonnes and have been there for me, i love you all so much and i wish you all the best in life.
Luvya All So Much,
Becka, Ur Daughter, Sis, Neice, Friend
xoxox
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Becka, talk to me. I'm on msn now! Please!
hopeful0712
I love you Becka, please be here to talk to us again. I am here for you now and always.xxx It is never too late, just talk to us.xx
jno4
Will be praying for you tonight.
lokkingforpeace
I Really hope u feel a bit better now please let us know your ok cos we do care about u xxx
mind
wots goin on hun?...tlk 2 us...love u xxxx
anon2
I have been in this place, And First of all I want to say that I'm so sorry. like me, I hope something, anything, will end up pulling you thru. I know it hurts like hell, I know you are alone, I know you see no other way, I KNOW. But just think about this even though it will feel like one more burden on top of all the rest. If you kill your self, I WILL have a ripple effect. and there are people you love that will NEVER get over it, As hard as it is to think about living for one more day for the sake of someone else, just think about it, for one more day, you are already in hell, it can't get worse. You obviously love them or you would have been gone already. Just hang on sweetie, Just for a little while longer.
Owshen