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Fibromyalgia clinical study!!!! Mood

Friday, July 11, 2008 | A Positive story

Today I got a call about a fibromyalgia clinical study that I applied to some time back. It's been about a month and half since I signed up online. I had thought maybe since all that time went by they were full or weren't interested in me. So I listened to the message and figured they were gone for the weekend, but I called and left a message that I was very interested and would call back Monday. I am so excited. Maybe this will make living with fibro worth it, because nothing right now makes up for the fibro crap. Maybe being given the chance to help and make a difference for others will help me feel better about me and my condition and the price I've pain and my family. This is a bit shelfish but maybe this is what I need to feel better, to do some good. Maybe there is some hope too that I can get help. Something to help with my symptoms since nothing I have tried either helped or the side effects were too much to handle. Plus the meds are expensive even with insurance. In my situation with all my families medical needs this would help a great deal. I could use the free treatment and meds. I don't mind being a ginuea pig, I've basically have felt like that before, but those were tests, this is treatment, which I've never really had. I need something to help me keep going. Something to give me hope back.....at least a shot at it! What I would give to feel young again, I KNOW I KNOW, I am "young" number wise but not physically. It would be great to feel like I did before this took my life over..but the memory is slipping away....to find it again would be nice, even if just for a little while. THINKING POSITIVE>>>>>I NEED SOME POSITIVE IN MY LIFE!!!! AND DAMN IT I AM GOING TO HAVE SOME POSITIVE IN MY LIFE! I AM TAKING IT BACK!!!!!!!!!!! so I hope!:)