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Journal Entry for February 9, 2008 Mood

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Not been on much in the last few days as laptop is not very well. I have decided to save up for a new one. as I really need one for my writing would struggle to do this without one.

But anyway moving on it is my birthday next week I will be 24 (gosh I am getting old, I will be buying my zimmer frame soon) and already I am not looking forward to it as since my grandparents and my "mum" and "dad" died it has never been special. rather it has become like a normal day, nothing has happened on it and I dont get any cards or presents, no one even remembers to wish me happy birthday, I am not joking!

I just wish for just one year that I could have a day to remember, a day of laughter and fun, a day of feeling special, a day where I feel valued and loved and yet this will not be the case, rather I will most likely spend all day on my own then in the evening take myself out to the pub and buy myself a drink, this is not much of a birthday, but what else can I do, it would just be so nice to receieve cards and presents for my birthday so I feel someone remembers and cares that I am even on this planet.

But that will not happen so here comes another miserable birthday where even mother forgets my birthday, well I will be glad when it is over I dont know why people make such a big fuss about it?

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Happy birthday ahead of time, you deserve so much happiness this year, try to take time for you do something, even if its a little thing that makes you feel special just you.
love and hugs,
terri

terri44
happy birthday hunny just incase i forget will say it now lol x x x

swifty3
We could have a birthday party on here for you, when is it? We could all send you a lovely message for your birthday and special hugs. If it is any consolation I don't get anything from my family on my birthday, after my Mum died I have had problems with my dad, sister and brother and I don't get anything. I admit I do have my Hubby and my Children and they care for me and so I hope one day you find a special person, just like I did and that you get people to love you too. Don't give up hope, because you never know what is around the corner. You cannot make people care, I have found this out and for years I was very depressed about it, but I have dusted myself down and I have found happiness. I am now 45 years old, very old compared to you, at your age I too had lots of problems, northing compared to what you have been through, but I had problems and now I am happy, so don't you ever give in, don't you ever give up and I am sure you know that your friends at DS love and care for you, I hope you know that. A Happy Birthday for next week. My love to you ... K x

lucylocket
You're never alone, I'm always near,
When your troubled, down or blue.
All you have to do is call me,
I'm always here for you.

It doesn't matter where I'm at,
It doesn't matter when.
When you need someone to talk to,
I'm here to be your friend.

If you need someone to hold your hand,
or a hug to say I care.
If you need a shoulder to cry on,
for you I will be there.

So never think you are a burden,
when the weight gets to be to much.
You might find if look hard enough,
a good friend could be the right touch.

You're never alone, I'm always here,
through the good times and the bad.
I'm always here to be your friend,
I don't like to see you sad .... Love Karen x

lucylocket
i shall be flipping ring ya hun!!! i do remember the fday honest! keep an eye out in the post ok! also did the other pressie ever turn up?
hugs lil sis
Big sisx

mumofthree
happy birthday

loffra180
happy birthday my friend an how i do relate...... an what is the date of yur b'day.......... Diane

DianeE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE, REMEMBER PEOPLE HERE ON DS CARE ABOUT YOU!!! I HOPE YOU DAY IS BETTER THAN EVER!!!

nonilv