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Journal Entry for October 26, 2007 Mood

Friday, October 26, 2007

Life Is More Of A Farce Everyday!!!!

Things are getting worse by the second, was woken this morning by one of the support workers asking me if would I be able to bring my meeting with keyworker forward to now, so I get up, get dressed, go downstairs and ask for my keyworker.

The receptionist comes back out saying you are not seeing your keyworker now, rather you are seeing the housing manager, (who I have to say hates my guts at the moment but not really sure why).

So now loads of bad things are going through my head, (like what have I done wrong and why was I lied to over the phone why did the support worker not just say that the housing manager would like to see me) and anyway I go into the meeting and I am called a lier for telling them that my friends had put my deed poll (which they were looking after has I did not want it to get lost in the move) in the post (which hello why am I the lier that is what my friends told me they were doing last time we spoke) and that I knew full well that they were going on holiday (which in fairness I did not know cause generally speaking they always go on holiday the first two weeks in november, and I was so shocked to receieve a post card from them to say they were in Spain last week,) hopefully they will be back this weekend and I can get on to them about this.

Also the manager kept on bringing up the mistake I made when I first moved in here of not bringing my deed poll with me and looking back on that now I really should of brought it down, but at that time I was alot worse emotional and really not with it in my head at that time, so yes I made so many mistakes it that time but since then I have been trying to learn from those mistakes and most importently get hold of my deed poll.

So basically I have been given 28 days to produce a deed poll or I will be made homeless, I really dont need this now on top of all else that is going on, ok I can see it from their view point that until they see this they dont know who I am, but cant they see I am doing all I can to get this document to them, and now adding the threat of being made homeless is making my illness even worse,

Why cant people see I am trying my hardest to do things, and lay off me for a while, as this is not helping me at all, all I want right now is to just rest and concentrate on getting well again and getting my life in order but I cant really do this when I have all this other garbage thrown on me over and over again that I have to deal with.

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shitters hun!!!!!!hugs for you love ya lil sis xox

mumofthree
what is a deed poll?

79pounds
Hugs to you AJ-i do understand that life can just seem like one great big struggle.Try to hang in there though.Thinking of you.Lydiaxx

nebel
How perfectly dreadful to use such trickery! Just plain mean. I pray for calm inside you during this shitstorm. You can weather this. Hang on. Bayou

bayou
I am sorry you are having such a hard time. Hang in there and l am sure you will eventually win though. keep talking and don't give in. Thinking of you Lyndax

toolboxcounsellor
OMG - having to deal with all these things and DEED POLLS for gooness sakes.....I do really feel for you about this, so ruddy fedupmaking is putting it mildly - a BIG Comforting HUG..to you...Cathrynn X

Cathrynn
I wish I could hug you!

MM

NMmmm
I know you are doing your best to make things right. Hang in there sweetie. Your best is all you can do.

Zydeco
I agree with mumofthree

gemmom
hey lil sis BIG SHIITTERS hun u take care matey talk soon luv ya xxoo

C4O
i wish i could give you great big hug, hang on in there hun xxxx

trish2001
Hang in there Ali. I hope things get better for you. Sorry I wasn't there for you. K x

lucylocket
What a coil! I'm sure sorry you have to go through this. Praying that it all turns out OK.
Love ya, A

Alexandra5
my heart goes out to you who have suffered so

brianswife