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Thursday, March 27, 2008

So I've put this off long enough. I haven't quite had the words to write here lately. I know what I'm feeling inside but when it comes to spitting them back out I'm at a loss. So things haven't been so hot lately, I've been struggling hard. It's very hard for me to admit that. Just looking at those words makes me cringe. I'm the type that wears a smile no matter how bad things get. Thats just the way I have been raised. There are so many things I want to say, wish I could say, but I can't not here not ever.

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maybe sometime? i hope you are able to let some things out....ignoring things can sometimes keep you sick. letting things out doesn't have to be teling the world either. have a good night.

seacow
Well that's a beginning and I'm glad you found the courage. We all put on that mask you are talking about. When I was a kid we weren't allowed to show feelings either and it didn't matter if they were happy or sad. How sick is this. Why do you cringe at admitting that you are struggling hard. Read all the other journals. You don't need to hold back here. I don't. It's my safe place, because I know I won't be judged.I hope you find enough comfort to open up with time. I'm so worried about you my friend. I think I could handle any terrible secret better than not knowing what is torturing you.

Karrin
i tried that for years. i put on the fake smile, but it killed me inside. this semester was the first time that i couldn't pretend anymore. i lost a lot of friends, but i feel better. since they didn't stick my they they must not have been good friends anyway!

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Liti
take your time and go slow taling about your feelings is very hard and just go slow I was taught to put a smile on my face and just move on.but i realized that it isnt healthy to deny how bad i feel .talking with someone you trust might be an option for you to if you didnt feel safe enough to journal your feelings here.you can personal message me anytime i am a good listener.take care sweety....................

jannis