phyllis10303's Journal

hey its me phyllis just saying hi to all i know i havent been on in awhile but i am try to get my life back a whole lot is going on my husband still havnt found a job yet and my daugter is realy getting to me she been home from school for a couple of days  cause she had got head lice from a kid in her class i am streed out  a lot i dont like being around my husband like this money is real short its like i am takking  care of every body  myself and i cant take it any more i just want out my house dont stay clean  evry thing i have i cant have tomy self cause every body want it i am here but i dont want to be here any more but i keep going its like iam going backwards then forward i ask god to give me the strength to keep going and i know he will be in his time iam just want things when  i want them and i know it dont work that way iam trying not to drink so much i slowed down a lot i havent dranked in 8 days and iam going out my mine cause i want one but i dont need it  i lost 20pounds  and iam depressed about that i realy dont have any souport here in my house every body seem happy living like this but iam not i want out so bad i can tatse it iam so tried of my husband bull shit he starting to make me realy dilike him in more ways ten one it seem like he dont want any thing  any more like he gave up on life its self and he pulling me down with him and i dont want to go down all i want is to be happy and live my life to the fulliest but with him here it wont happen i think and fell like he dont want me to have any thing cause he anit got shit i went out  to day and asked him to cook  i was gone for 5 hours and you know what he couldnt do that he makes me sick i think its time we both let go and move on iam not happy where iam at in my life right now i see things i want and do and being with him i cant do the m cause of the money i can do bad by my self but iam still here and ian going to keep fight ing so just show me some suport  caus e i diont gott it here 

you rfriend phyllis