amymarie's Journal

Thought I would post something since my smiley face meter has been set on horrible since before Christmas.   My aunt was in the hospital the whole wk of Christmas she has COPD and had gotten worse.  She was in the last stages.  The doctors sent her home but the hospice nurses and social workers was coming out to her house everyday.   It has been very hard on my mother because this was my moms last living relative, well as far as brothers, sisters, mother and father thing.   Of course she still has her children except on son who had past away about 7 yrs ago.  (My brother)   Anyway.  My aunt past away this morning.   Mom is very upset of course and all the funeral arrangments etc has been left up to mom to take care of.   The stress from this has left me very tired and of course stressed.   Plus trying to deal with my own health issues and well it makes me think about my own death etc.   All the gloomy stuff.  Suppose I'm depressed as well as stressed, fatigued, sick and whole bunch of other issues.  Well thats how I'm doing at the moment.  Hope everyone else had a good christmas and happy new year.   Thanks for the hugs.