Beanybabe's Journal

So it's been 3 months to the day since i left my husband and here is a poem to commemorate.  Hope you like.

I use to want you

I use to need you

I use to feel you

Like you were close to me

I still care for you

But I am letting go.

You really hurt me

But I'm learning to forgive.

I have given up hope

Of ever hearing your voice again

Of seeing your smile.

So I let you go

You are no longer mine

I didn't want to let you go

But at some point

I have to face the truth.

And I will be happy

I will feel joy again.

You use to drown me

With all your demands and expectations 

But now the tide has turned. 

I thought I was nothing without you

I thought I wouldn't survive

But I am more than you

I'm me!

I am strong

I am brave

I am beautiful

And I am God's

Not yours.

You had me beaten down

Under your thumb

But I am breaking free. 

The chains are weak

I can breaethe again.

I have found that in looking at myself

I am worth something.

You couldn't see it

But that's your lose.

Next time I won't change 

Next time he will complete me

Not shatter me

I felt like i had lost it all

That I had destroyed

The one good thing in my life.

I realise now

My life begins now

With the people I love

And, more importantly,

Who love me!

Yes! I am loveable!

I'm creative

And bold

And happy

Oh so happy

To be free.

 Now I can breathe.