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I am now single again.
It's nobody's fault, we gave it a try, what worked for me didn't work for him.
I feel very, very overwhelmed and alone.
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Ah, and so the crap keeps happening :(
Had to get my appendice removed last Sunday night as my two housemates rushed me into hospital. The pain alone was rather breath-taking, and the surgery did not happen until Monday afternoon. By then I had bashed at my boyfriend horribly out of panick and stress, and things have not been doing so well since then. :( Mind you, I have lied to him before to try and cover my depression, and seeing as we'd just argued before the pain started Sunday night, he was having doubts as if I was even sick at all. I cannot blame him. Depressive or not, I've deceived him once, and its my own fault if he has difficulty trusting me now. :(
We're meeting tomorrow morning to have a talk. I have many things to explain about my behavior and truthfulness... We're on friendly terms right now, but I'm afraid that my recent actions killed something that could've been absolutely wonderful... I need to get my life back in order and set myself straight, big time. Even if things end up being mended, I must make sure I can gather the stress not to let it happen again... Hopefully it's not too late yet. :(
Küann xox
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Just be yourself sweetie. Truth and honesty lead to trust. Let him know everything you're going through, including anything you've hidden from him. You'll know from his reactions how to proceed. I'm rooting for you.
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Sorry to hear you had all that pain and ended up having surgery. I hope things go well with your boyfriend. I agree just lay it ALL out there and be totally honest. Hopefully he will learn to trust you again after he sees what all you have been through and how you really feel inside. I wish you all the best!!!
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You're never alone!!! Hang in there sweetie! I admire your strenght and you courage to be soo open about your depression! I wish I could be that open!
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i feel the same way when my depression comes back.
i have a hard time telling my friends and family because i feel like they've dealt with it enough. but i've realized that if i dont reach out and say something to them, then they have no way of knowing whats going on and i end up neglecting them. it's times like this that you realize who your real friends are. they will be the ones who stick around and help you through it all.
hope you start to feel better!
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i know how you fill! since i got sick with depression some people don't want to be around, its hard, but trust in god, cause your never alone. your in my prayers.
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Wow! Your video journal was an open book.Amazing. Your strength and power come from love and only good things come out of it. I wish your clouds come to pass with brilliant rays of sun shining down on you. Best!
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You are really brave for being so forward.
Past Entries
| July 2007 |
Sunday, 7/29
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You're not alone here, sweetie. You have all your friends, including me. You're a terrific girl. There's a great guy out there just for you. And you'll both bump into each other when you least expect it. A really big hug to you from your friend Oli.
DistantOrbit
I am s sorry you are feeling the way you are. I hope you have been able to start thinking and finding things to do that make you happy and bring some joy back into your heart. Keep searching it is there!!!!
Hugs, Michelle
sunshine521
Sending you a hug. Know that you are not alone. I am here if you need to talk and you have all your oher friends too x
stix24