Another day
Thats how I awoke this morning, thinking bloody hell, another day.I've tried to stay positve, I got my exercise, I …
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im loosing all sence of stability and happy feelings.. i dont knowwhat i feel anymore.. if i feel anymore.. see no future.. i want todie.beforei only had my goodjudgment of people... but i fucked that up..now any and all confidence ihad in myself is shattered.. imrepulsive... ishouldgiveup on haveinga loveofmy life... or a one night stand...or even a hug...
ivegot the razor in myhand... im so numb... it would be so easy to go deeper how nice it would feel to know that i would never have to have another nightmare... never wake up again to face another day.. alone... always alone...evenwhen people arearound.. im lost scared and alone in my mind
all i had to lookforward to was my gf coming down here in 2months... but thats stupid.. waste all my money... haveher defy her parents... pointless...shell findsomeone else by then.. shes so pretty and nice... everyone wants her...someone will snag her and ill be just another "ex" im suppost to go back to conn.. but to what? i have no home there... no real friends...noone bothers to get toknow me.. noone can knowme here... i atleast have a safe place to sleep and eat... icould get a good job...
im always the "friend" im always loved like a "sister" thats not enough for me...
shit.im bleeding onthekeybored..
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A permenent solution to a temporary problem????? Come ON Babe! You can do better than that!
beiceth
Talk to me anytime, dont like to see someone so young feeling that they cant go on. Earlier i saw that someone said when you are trying to get to sleep, imagine you are somewhere safe or with someone, however fictional that you would like to be with and i think you will feel better and hopefully go to sleep dreaming good dreams. As for the days thats more difficult but there are groups you could join to help get your life back on track. Stay strong love and life is a gift, Debbie
milly17
i want to know you...i want to be your friend
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